When I got home, napakatahimik ng bahay. Hindi ako mapakali dahil dati, this used to be a comfortable silence pero ngayon ay ang sakit sakit ng katahimikan.
Ilang oras pa siguro akong walang kibo at nakatitig lang sa ceiling nang magbukas yung front door ko, revealing Jin kaya naman ay nanlaki ang mga mata ko. Everything was set.
Agad naman na lumapit sa akin si Jin, and then he hugged me tight. Naramdaman ko din ang pag-iyak niya, so I kept rubbing his back to shush him up.
Naubos na yata kanina lahat ng luha ko dahil kahit na gaano pa ako naiiyak ngayon ay walang ni isa na luha ang tumutulo sa mukha ko ngayon.
Hinayaan ko lang na niyayakap ako ni Jin ngayon, and I closed my eyes. I led him to my bedroom, at dun kami nahiga and we didn't let go of each other. I placed the blanket on us, and kept listening to his cries dahil wala akong masabi. I was afraid that if I spoke, mas masasaktan kami at mahihirapan na maglet go sa isa't isa. But we need to.
"Hanjin, I'm sorry. Hindi ko naipaglaban. Wala man lang akong magawa. Bangtan is my home, Bangtan is my family, and so are you. Pero mas marami ang masasaktan kung sakaling ikaw ang piliin ko. I'm sorry, I really am. Can I stay with you for tonight? Our last night?" Sabi ni Jin, and I smiled at him.
I wanted to stay with him, too. Hindi ko kakayanin na ang huling pagkikita namin ay yung hindi kami nakapag-usap at sa loob pa ng CEO's office, kung saan gumuho ang lahat.
"Of course. You can stay with me. For tonight. I don't wanna lose you, too, pero naiintindihan kita. It would be selfish of me kung hindi ako papayag dito," sabi ko, and he smiled at me and nodded.
I was playing with his hair as silence fell down on us. Nakatingin lang ako sa ceiling, habang nakayakap naman siya sa akin. Napakadami kong gustong sabihin, kaso nga lang ay hindi ko magawa. Hindi ko magawa dahil hindi ko maisalita lang ng mga bagay na yun.
And then, I was surprised when he spoke up. I was even more surprised dahil sa mga salita na binitawan niya.
"Can we go somewhere?" Sabi niya, and I didn't know kung tama ba na pumayag ako dahil we couldn't be seen together.
"Somewhere? Hindi ba't bawal na tayong makita na magkasama? Where do you want to go?" I asked, and he smiled sadly at me.
"Home. Hindi sa Bangtan dorm. Home. Kila eomma and appa, and hyung. Gusto kong makita mo sila at makilala bago tayo tuluyan na mapaghiwalay ng BigHit," sabi ni Jin, and I felt a tear slip down my cheek. Ngayon ako naiyak.
Hindi ko alam ang gagawin ko. I had to meet his family, pero dahil sa sitwasyon na to. I was dreaming that I will meet his family in a positive mood, yung dahil sa magpapakasal kami, kaso nga lang I had to meet his family at this situation. Because we needed to break up.
Pero nevertheless, I wanted to meet his family.
"Saan tayo sasakay? Ngayon na?" I asked, and he smiled at me and nodded.
"Ngayon na. I will drive. Dala ko yung kotse ko. Alam ko yung direksyon kung saan. Hopefully they aren't sleeping yet," sabi ni Jin, at tumayo naman siya sa pagkakahiga.
"Okay. Let's go," sabi ko, at tumayo na rin.
Wala na kaming pakialam kung ano man yung suot namin. Wala na kaming pakialam kung nakapantulog na kami. We were going to his home, and it was our goal. We won't let this last night go to waste.
Nang makarating na kami sa bahay nila ay agad naman kaming pinagbuksan ng mommy niya, and then hugged him. Niyakap naman niya pabalik yung mommy niya, and then when they pulled away from each other ay nagulat ako nang yakapin din ako ng mommy niya.
"You were the girl my son was always talking about, right? Hanjin?" Sabi nung mommy niya, and I widened my eyes as I nodded.
"Opo. I'm Hanjin. It's my pleasure to meet you, Mrs. Monteverde," sabi ko, and she pulled away from the hug then smiled at me.
"Eomma or mom is fine. Let's get inside," sabi niya, and then I looked at Jin to see him smiling at me.
Nang makapasok naman kami ay nakita namin na nasa living room yung daddy ni Jin but his older brother isn't. Pinaupo naman kami, so we did.
"Jin, what are you doing here? Wala din dito ang kuya mo. May sarili na siyang bahay. Isa pa, is this Hanjin? The girl you were always talking about?" Sabi ni dad niya, and I was surprised na alam din niya kung sino ako.
"Yes, pa. This is Hanjin, and I came here to introduce you to her," sabi ni Jin, and I bowed to his father.
"I'm Hanjin Lee, sir. It's my pleasure meeting you," sabi ko, and his dad chuckled.
"Stand straight, daughter. You can call me appa or dad. My son has found a keeper," sabi ni dad niya, and I smiled at them.
"Dad, Mom, let me reintroduce her to you. This is Hanjin Lee, the girl I want to marry soon. I don't want to let her go, but we have to. Pero kayo ang witness, kayo ang saksi. Babalikan ko siya, at siya ang pakakasalan ko. Hindi magbabago yan," sabi ni Jin, and I couldn't help but slip a tear.
Kinabukasan ay hindi ko makalimutan ang mga kaganapan nung gabing yun. I met his parents, and they loved me. But we had to break up. Gusto rin ako ng mga magulang niya, and they said that they will wait for me, hihintayin daw nila na magbalikan na kami ni Jin kung kailan maayos na ang lahat.
Sinabi ko naman kay Jin ang plano ko, and he said na dahil hindi niya ako masasamahan ngayon ay tawagan ko nalang siya kapag paalis na ako. And here I am, standing in the airport and waiting for my flight, waiting for him to answer his phone, too.
When he finally answered, I smiled sadly.
"You took way too long, my pabo. I'm waiting for my plane now. Wag mong pababayaan yung sarili mo habang nasa America ako, okay?" Sabi ko, and I heard him chuckle from the other line.
"Yah, pabo pa rin tawag mo sa akin? Aalis ka na nga at lahat? But still, pagbalik mo, ako pa rin, ha? Kasi ako, ikaw pa rin. Ingatan mo rin yung sarili mo, dahil wala ako dyan para ingatan ka," sabi ni Jin, and I couldn't help but look down and have a sad smile.
"I know. Isang taon lang naman ako sa America. Babalik ako. And when I get back, you're still the one that I will ever love. Remember that," sabi ko, and then felt myself sobbing.
Bigla naman na inannounce na yung flight ko kaya pinunasan ko na yung mga luha ko.
"One last thing, chin up. Don't cry. Tumingin ka sa may bandang taas," sabi niya, and I looked up.
Umasa ako na nandun siya for a second, kaya naman mas umiyak ako. Akala ko nandun siya para sa akin.
"Joke lang naman. But... turn around, princess,"
Then the call ended.
When I turned around, however, I saw him there a few feet away. I couldn't believe my eyes. He was here.
He started running towards me, and I did too. When we were in front of each other, he smiled down at me and I smiled back at him.
Then, he leaned in, placing his lips softly against mine. I missed this. I then kissed back, wrapping my arms around his neck, but he pulled away after a few seconds. It was dangerous, but we loved dangerously.
"I will miss you. I will wait for you,"
"I love you,"
"I love you, too,"
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fake love ♧ kim seokjin au
Fanfiction♧ bangtan series #4 ♧ "when she told me we should stir up fake love to mess with the reporters, i thought it was fun. until i got sick of this fake love, because the strings started to get attached," hanjin lee is the nation's crown princess, always...
