A few days went by and I observed you like I always have been.
I saw you smile today, it's been awhile since you have smiled, and today I could tell it was a real one.
I couldn't tell if you were becoming happier, or maybe you were moving on from Renjun, but god I hoped it was both.
I got to walk home with you today.
I was surprised you were the one that asked this time. I thought maybe there was a chance that you had moved on, you wanted to be more outgoing again, you wanted to make friends.
For a moment I thought you wanted me.
I was wrong.
On the walk home, you told me that you've noticed me. How I stare constantly, the way I act around you, wanting to hang out with you every minuet, and that I talk to your ex boyfriend. I'd never expect you to talk to him again, but I guess Renjun has been telling you some things I've said about you.
You told me to stop. To stop watching you, to stop asking Renjun about you, and to stop trying to get close to you.
You also said that just because you were gay didn't mean you wanted me. And with that, you went inside your house, leaving me alone on the steps.
You know Jaemin, those words kinda hurt. I wanted to yell at you and say that you didn't mean it. You didn't mean it, did you?
In my bedroom that night, all I could think about was you. I know you said not to, but I really can't control it.
Thinking back to what you said, I wasn't going to give up that easily, I'm not that kind of person, I know I'm not that weak, and that's why I have to have you.
Ah Na Jaemin, I've really got it bad for you, don't I.
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see you Sunday.
