Jeno
When you were gone Friday, I felt really alone.
I didn't have anyone to stare at, no one to try and tease. Even though if you had came, I probably wouldn't have been able to bring myself to say something to you.
I'm still upset with myself for what I did.
You were here today though. I could tell right away that you changed. Your face was beaming bright as it was lit with a smile. Your skin was literally glowing. Your hair was swept here and there, and it made you look hot as hell.
After taking your presence in, you had turned and looked me in the eyes. "Good morning hyung." and you walked away with your face still beaming bright.
My god Jaemin, you can't just disappear for the weekend and then come back talking to me like you're trying to seduce me.
What kind of things do you know NaNa.
During lunch I took the spot of sitting alone, you already caused me enough frustration this morning, I needed to think. But of course you noticed and strolled on over with that bright smile.
I didn't know what you wanted which terrified me the most.
You sat down and made sure we were touching.
"I didn't want you too be alone." you told me.
You have it wrong Jaemin. It's the other way around, I don't want you to be alone.
"J-Jaemin" I found it hard to speak. "Y-You don't have to, I'm fine here by m-myself." I tried speaking without making eye contact. "Hyung" you grabbed my chin to make sure I was looking at you. "you don't deserve to be alone, I mean you'd say the same thing to me, wouldn't you" your eyes were sparkling, why.
What have you figured out.
I let out a breath knowing that fighting you to be alone wasn't going to work.
I moved your hand off and started speaking, "Listen Jaemin, I have to apologize for what I did on Thursday. That wasn't cool of me at all, I never wanted to make you cry. That's something I never wanna do again."
"Jeno-hyung" that's the first time you've used my name, why now?
"Don't worry about it. I cried big deal. If I'm gonna be honest, it did feel nice to let it out. I've been so trapped inside myself lately that getting pushed against those lockers was a good way for me too wake up ya know." you winked, sending chills throughout my body.
"So actually I should be tha-" You stopped and stared forward. Your eyes were filled with anger like the first time I came to you during lunch. I looked up to see the reason.
Here came Huang Renjun with a smile on his face.
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So I have realized that my story is a mess, I feel like I'm skipping and not adding enough context, but I'm not the best writer, so leave me alone. It's okay I'm not hating on you guys I'm picking on myself. But I am excited for one of my chapters I'll be posting late next week. It has a whole flashback in it, there's a lot of Renjun and Jaemin's relationship in that one and I had fun writing it. Anyways I'll probably update again Sunday, bye for now ❤
