Jaemin
Donghyuck walked me home after you let me go. I cried most of the way home, and it felt good. I'm not the person to cry, but things have been different lately.
Hyuck had did his best to comfort me, but for some reason it felt wrong. The words he was saying to me, I wanted to hear them from your mouth instead.
And he had his hands on my shoulders about the whole walk, I wish they were yours.
I couldn't show it to you, but I already got enough thrills when you pinned me up against the lockers. I still can't explain why I broke down. Ah, but thinking back to it has me feeling all warm inside.
I don't know why, but things are changing.
Explain it Jeno
Hyuck snapped his fingers. "You're smiling, what happened?" he questioned.
Should I tell him Jeno, would you like that? Should I tell him I've been thinking about you too. What if I outed you, would that make me easier to get. Would girls bother you less.
I'll be good for now hyung and keep your secret.
I turned to Hyuck who had a worried look. I put a hand on his shoulder speaking softly "I'm good now, thanks for making me feel better." He gave me an uneasy smile but still appreciated my comment. I waved him away and slipped inside my house.
No one was home. It felt nice. Being alone in silence, not having to worry someone will come down the stairs to bother you with useless questions.
Something about today has me thinking differently. I think I'm starting to know how you feel. Being alone and having you stuck on my mind.
Only if you were here alone with me.
I think I'm figuring out this game. You really want me, and you're not giving up until you win.
Fine, we can do it your way, but don't expect me to play nice.
So screw what I said about us getting hurt, lets see how far you're willing to go Lee Jeno.
Renjun
Jaemin, why aren't you here today?
Did something happen that you're not telling me?
You should see Jeno, he looks hurt. The boy has been on the verge of tears all day, and all because you're not here.
What happened NaNa?
Of course though, I'd understand if you didn't tell me. You probably don't wanna talk to me anymore.
I was the one that broke up with you. I said that I had started to lose feelings. I didn't think that it would be fair for you to be in a relationship were your partner didn't love you anymore.
That's just not right.
Don't get me wrong NaNa, I was really proud of our relationship. We had some sort of passion between us that felt so nice, sometimes erotic too.
I miss having that.
It kinda felt nice sometimes seeing other people get jealous of what we had, especially him. Occasionally we would fight, but that was normal for couples. One thing you particularly didn't like was all the attention that I got from girls, and sometimes guys.
They would pull me away from you, tried distracting me from you. Someone even tried kissing me in front of you, but you weren't having it.
I remember later that night at your house, you really showed me who I belonged to.
It sucks knowing I'm not yours anymore, even though I was the one that cut it off. You looked so broken when I told you it was over. Only if he didn't complicate everything, we could could still be doing things like that, we could still be in love. I hate myself for seeing things differently, for falling for him, but I wanna feel all those things with him now.
I need to start acting now, I don't know what's stopping me, but I can't sit around anymore. I know you want him too, you just won't admit it yet, that's just how you work.
I have to beat you Na Jaemin. The thought of you getting marked by him is driving me insane.
I wanna be the one coming undone underneath him.
So I'm going to work, and I'm going to push your limits.
I will get Jeno one way or another.
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I know that I said I was going to update Friday, but yeah, here I am. Hope you guys are good and the happiest birthday to Jungwoo <3
