Renjun
So, that's not what friends do huh, we don't get to hang out. That's not friendly in your book is it Jaemin.
Damn did you throw a big fit when you caught us though.
I think I figured it out now though. I didn't really fall for Jeno, but seeing him fall for you when we were together made me upset, because I didn't want him to take you away from me, so technically I'm just trying to get back at him, right? So yea I guess Jaemin, you were right. I was just playing games with Jeno and I damn did a good job cause it worked, you snapped.
I wish I could've shown you the look on your face just minutes ago.
But what am I gonna do now. I know I lost but what now. I know you're never coming back to me, and once as Jeno figures out I was the one playing games he'll hate me. But I didn't hate the time we spent together, I learned a thing or two about him but too bad that we will probably never be friends.
Life really does suck. I've made myself alone by all the choices I made. I'm the one that fucked myself over. But I'm not even mad. What the hell was I trying to get out of this because I don't feel anything. I'm not angry, I'm not sad, I'm not happy, I'm just neutral. It feels weird to be like this. But you know you both made me this way.
You two are okay to me, I don't think I'm gonna consider you guys friends anymore, but for now you guys are okay.
I can't imagine what's happening between you two right now and I don't wanna know but I don't want you to stop. I don't want you two to think about me.
Nevermind, I think I know what I want. I want you both to forget me.
Jaemin, forget about our past. Everything we did, I don't want you to remember anything we did, you don't matter to me and I don't matter to you. Everything is over and it's gonna stay that way. Just throw me away already.
Jeno, all the games I played with you, it was stupid of me but forget it all. Forget the little date we had, it was nothing. I never liked you and I know you never liked me. You and I have nothing in common and we'll never be anything. Forget all that shit I said about you. It probably never mattered, we are nothing and always will be nothing.
I want you two to be happy. I'll be nothing but a shadow to you both now. Just leave me alone.
I'll be okay.
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there is something about this chapter that I like and I'm happy with it. Also Renjun is talking to himself if that conclusion didn't come yet. Also I'm pretty mean, I'm making him all alone in this book but I think two more chapters and it will be done. Also I am hardcore thinking about making a sequel.
