Now that Renjun was sitting with us, it was quiet. You were angry, but you tried hard not to show it.
"So" he started. "I know that it got awkward since I just sat down joining you two like this, but I have this feeling that us three should be friends you know. And yeah this is coming out of nowhere, and I'm literally just pushing this out there on you guys, but look at us, all three of us really don't have friends, so we should change that." Renjun finished his sentence staring at me.
Wow, way too really force things there buddy.
But he was right, we don't have a lot of friends. Ever since you two broke up, you've both been so closed off, and me, I've been so trapped in you Jaemin that I haven't made time to meet some new people.
I looked over at you, but you were laughing silently.
"You know Renjun, we were friends once, but you messed up, so I don't think we can go back and be like that again."
Renjun started laughing too. "Oh come on NaNa, people deserve second chances, right?"
You rolled your eyes into what seemed like the next universe.
"Please don't call me that anymore, and yeah you're right, but people like you don't get them."
Now you were really angry. I didn't know what to do, I was feeling useless watching you two argue.
"Oh shut up Jaemin, you were just as much of a bitch to me, seriously you're the one that went off and decided it was okay to ge-"
"Shut the hell up you Chinese freak, you have no idea what you're saying."
You slammed your hands on the table causing a few heads to turn.
"You know the truth Jaemin, stop acting like it didn't happen." Renjun said getting up and leaving the lunchroom with a face full of anger.
Well there goes our somewhat compromise of trying to become friends.
You had your head lowered, you were thinking, and you looked so gorgeous lost in your head. I see Renjun made you upset too, and I wanted to kiss you and make him go away. But there were too many people around.
"Jaemin, what did he mean, ' you know the truth' ?" I asked, wanting an answer.
"Don't worry hyung, he's just saying things to make you think less of me, so please don't worry." "But why would he want me to think less of you?" you shrugged. "Maybe he likes you."
Oh my, Renjun you can't like me. You know I have my mind set on Jaemin, don't mess things up.
"Jaemin, do you like me?" your face dropped, and so did my heart.
"Hmmm, I think we could be friends, good friends. Don't you think, just you and I."
And my heart rose again. Yes, yes yes we can be friends. If it lets me get closer to you then yes.
Instead of speaking, I answered with a smile. And you smiled back so genuinely, I could have cried.
Jaemin, you really don't know how bad I have it for you. Please just allow me in already so I can make these feelings real with you and I won't go through any more frustration.
"Ah" you started pulling me out of my thoughts. "I remember I told Donghyuck that I'd practice with him during lunch today, so I have to leave you." you pouted.
Never mind what I said about wanting to be alone earlier, please don't leave Jaemin.
Even though I wanted to say something, I just sat there and watched you get out of your seat.
You leaned in and whispered "Maybe I'll see you later, alone." you winked backing away. "Bye Jeno." and there, you used my name again, tearing me apart on the inside.
Jeno's current state: Ready to nut.
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Hello. This is an early morning update but I won't be on for the rest of the day so basically I'm gonna plan on doing a crap ton of writing, if I don't get yelled at for being in my room. anyways I can't wait for the next chapter cause it's about my favorite one I've wrote and it's all in Jaemin's view sooooo :)
