BACK THEN *ON HOLD*

C H A P T E R F I V E

" I don't wanna say goodnight

I've never been so sure "

2011

"Chrissy"

"No Calum! You could have told me earlier. Why do you have to tell me the day you fly?"

"Chrissy, it's only for six months!"

"Six months, Calum! That's half a year! So much could happen in that time! You could - find a new girl, someone who's better than me, more beautiful, braver-"

"Shut up and kiss me, now" I shook my head. "I'll never find someone better than you. As long as you promise me you won't either"

"How could I? I can't even talk to other boys"

"And in the time I'm away I'm going to meet the boy who had a fear of speaking too. Maybe I can convince him to either come here, or he could call you"

"And how should that help? I couldn't talk to him anyway" I sighed.

"I love you Chrissy, don't ever forget that"

"I love you too, don't forget me please"My eyes began to get teary.

"Are you crying? Please, don't cry, you know that I'll have to cry too" I forced a smile and swallowed the tears down. "I'll call you as soon as I arrive. Okay?"

"Okay" Calum pulled me into a deep hug and placed a kiss on my lips. "I love you", I whispered and he whispered it back. His flight was announced and he left with a final kiss on my lips.

"Don't forget me", I whispered after he disappeared. Now the tears were coming and I couldn't hold them back. Why did he have to fly to Australia? Okay, I could understand it. He missed home. But why did he have to leave me? It worked so good.

I could understand him though. He missed his friends. He always told me about them. How awesome and funny they were. He also told me about Luke, the youngest of them. The one with the fear of talking, like me. I admired how Luke has changed. Calum told me about it. How much he changed. To the better. Calum told me he even posted Videos of him singing on YouTube. We watched them, he was really good.

And so, Calum was on his way to them and I was here, in a messy underground, driving home, to my mum and dad.

*

School was boring, no, it was a torture. My teachers still didn't like me, but normally Calum helped me and now I was on my one. When I was home, I sat alone in my room. Sometimes playing the piano or trying out the guitar Calum gave me for my last birthday, cause I was better in guitar than the bass. I was pretty good, for just playing for half a year.

I couldn't stand it any longer, I had to call Calum. Even though it was midnight in Australia, I had to talk to him and it's so difficult to find a time to talk, because he's on the other side of the world.

Tut, tut. Please take the call. Please be awake.

"Who is there?" Someone said, but it wasn't Calum. I wanted to answer. It didn't work. I took all my courage together and talked. I talked with him!

"I'm Chrissy, where's Calum?" I cheered inside. I could talk to him. Maybe it got better with my fear.

"He's sleeping. I'm Ashton. What do you want?" Ashton was one of Calum's friends.

"Can you please wake him?"

"Okay. Wait. Are you his girlfriend? Christina?"

"Yes."

"Mike, wake Cal up" I heard Ashton, but he wasn't speaking to me. I heard someone groaning in the background, probably Cal. "One Moment", ashton said to me. "He told us a lot about you"

"Really? What did he say?" Ashton didn't answer me but I was pretty sure he understood me.

"Who's there?", I could hear a sleepy Calum through my phone.

"Chrissy"

"Chrissy", he cheered, "wait, one moment, I have to get outta here, the boys are starring." I heard him getting up and going somewhere else. "Okay, why are you calling in the middle of the night?"

"I wanted to hear your voice. We haven't talked probably in a week and I miss you"

"Aww, I miss you too. The boys can get annoying sometimes" we laughed

"It's so good to hear your voice again" I sighed.

"Wait, how did you get the boys to wake me up?"

"I- I talked to Ashton" I smiled.

"Really? That is awesome, hun. Maybe someday you can talk to anybody" We both avoided the word cured, cause I'm not sick, I just have a fear.

We talked a bit until I heard Calum yawning more and more. "Go back to bed" I laughed and we said our goodbyes.

I felt a sting in my heart. I missed him so much that it hurt but I couldn't tell him how much I missed him. It would seem clingy and I was not like that.

I laid back on my bed, grabbed a book and read a bit. I was even more confused now. Why was I able to talk to Ashton over the phone? Could I talk to anybody now? I tried to concentrate on my book but it wouldn't work. So I took the guitar Calum gave me for my last birthday. He taught me to play the guitar too and I was better than with the bass.

Calum always told me how good I was even though I wasn't that good. Calum. I couldn't stop thinking about him.

I played for about half an hour but stopped because I couldn't concentrate. I missed him so much that it hurt.

I placed the guitar back in the bag and wrote Calum a good night text, even though he probably just stood up or was still sleeping.

I closed my eyes and fell into a light, dreamless sleep.

{I'm sorry that it is so short but I wrote a bit in my Computer and then it got deleted :/

But at least my app is working again and Saving my chapters.

Have you heard daylight? (You probably had) it's awesome, isn't it?

Have a nice day.

Tomorrow I have to go to school again :/

~Lara}