BACK THEN *ON HOLD*

C H A P T E R E L E V E N

" 'Cause every inch of you is perfect

From the bottom to the top "

***Chrissy's POV***

"Will you come with me to Australia this time?", he asked and looked at me with puppy-dog-eyes.

"I told you: I don't want to be in your way. And the boys will think I'm weird because I can't talk to them"

"But please Chrissy. You're not in my way and the boys won't think you're weird. You will get used to them and they are really nice. They'll understand you"

"No, they'll not. They are boys who just randomly post cover on YouTube. And I can't even talk to my teachers!"

"Chrissy, this is you. You don't have to be ashamed of it. And it gets better, don't you notice it?"

"If this "fear" is me, what am I when I overcome it? I'm not ashamed of it, I'm afraid that I'll lose my shit if I really overcome it sometimes! I'm sorry that I'm like this right now but I am afraid! And I just can't take this anymore"

"Come here Chrissy", he said and pulled me into his arms, resting his chin on top of my head and stroking my back. "You're not crying again, are you?" I shook my head but my face was wet from tears. "It's okay. You're more than just this fear. You're wonderful, beautiful, nice and so much more. I mean it Chrissy. What do I have to do to make you believe me?"

I shook my head lightly and felt how his shirt got wet but he didn't care. He just held me in his arms, kissing my hair and stroking my back.

"It's okay Chrissy", he whispered over and over and after a while the tears faded. "You know, I love you, no matter what. You now that, don't you?"

I nodded. "Yes" my voice broke and I coughed, hard.

"Hey, hey. Come, I'll get you a water", he led me out of the room and down in the kitchen. No body was here so I had not to worry about someone - apart from Calum - seeing me like this. He gave me a glass of water and I drank the whole glass with one sip.

My throat was still aching and I quickly got me another glass. This time sipping it slower.

"Honey, is everything okay?" Coughing I nodded and drowned another glass of water.

"Yes, I just have a bit of a cold but it's okay", I said. My throat did not got better but I tried not to cough again.

"If it gets worse you have to go to a doctor", he demanded and rubbed my back. I nodded even though I knew I would not go to a doctor because I hated to hot to the doctor.

"But you will come to Australia with me, don't you?", he asked after a while.

I sighed. "Okay. If you want me to"

He cheered and hugged me tight.

*

"We have half an hour until we have to check in. What do you want to do?", he asks me after we went through the security-check.

In that half hour we just went to McDonalds and ate a cheeseburger because after security check there isn't much more than a little shop with perfume and last-minute-souvenirs.

We waited for our flight to get announced but soon heard that it had one hour delay. I sighed and later my head on Calum's shoulder.

"Are you excited?", he asked after a while of silence, only the conversations if the other guest audible.

"Hell yes, I've never been in a plane and we are flying to Australia! Australia!" I was overly excited but also very tired because it was two in the morning and we wouldn't be in Australia until tomorrow our time.

After an hour we finally got into the plane and took our seats. They weren't really comfortable but I could sit at the window so it was okay.

*

The flight was far to long for me and I was asleep more than half of the time. The other time I was clenching Calum's hand because I was afraid. Especially the take-offs and the landings were the scariest for me.

We got pretty good food at the plane as well. I was surprised because everyone always told me how awful plane-food was. But the flight was just so boring and I don't know if I would do it again.

We went out of the plane through a passports check and quickly got our luggage. After that we went trough a passage and there were many people standing there. Calum took my hand and brought me to three guys our age holding up a sign with our names on it.

Calum laughed, greeted the boys, gave them a man-hug and came back to my side.

"Chrissy, that are Luke, Michael and Ashton." I greeted them with a nod but they pulled me into a group hug.

"So you are Calum's girl?", the one with the colourful hair said and I nodded. I didn't even dare to try to talk with them, I was to afraid that they will think I'm some weirdo kid.

Calum pulled me into his side and I started to smile. "Let's get home, I want to show you everything", Calum said and we quickly made our way to a bus station.

"I'm sorry guys, we still can't drive. We'll have to take the bus", the one with the fluffy, curly hair said. I think his name was Ashton.

The bus was way to packed and we with our luggage had it ten times worse. The good thing was that the boys took my bag so I didn't have to carry it out of the bus.

As we went out of the bus a wall of heat blew in my face. I wasn't used to that much of heat and especially not in September.

I wore long trousers and a cardigan over my t-shirt. I quickly pulled of my cardigan and put it into my handbag. It was still hot and we still had to go half an hour until we would be at Luke's home.

I have tried to avoid all possible question and if some were asked Cal answered for me. I never let go of Cal's hand. I was still afraid that the boys will think of me as some weirdo.

{sorry for the short chapter and the lack of updates. But i have holidays now so I'll try to update more regularly.

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~Lara}