BACK THEN *ON HOLD*

C H A P T E R N I N E T E E N

" I'm sorry if I say I need ya,

But I don't care, I'm not scared of love "

When I woke up Chrissy was still asleep, which made me happy, because we stayed up so late last night. Even when she was asleep she had a light frown on her face. What happened to her? She once was so happy and carefree, I'm not saying that she completely changed, but it seems like she aged a couple of years in the last 2 years. And I stayed the them. Are we drifting apart? No, I said to myself, we are meant to be. There is no drifting apart. She just got mature, while I stayed more or less childish. Maybe that is what keeps us together. We balance ourself. I'm the childish one, keeping us both entertained. She's the one thinking what might happen. She is the one holding us both to the ground, preventing us from floating away, like many others did.

Maybe it was just to hard to think about the future for me. She knew exactly what she wanted. She wanted to settle down, have kids, get a job. And didn't even knew what I would get for breakfast the next day. She keeps all of us guys to the ground. I just hope she'll never leave me.

After a long time of staring at my beautiful girlfriend, she woke up.

"We're you watching me sleep again?" She mumbled.

"Good morning to you too", I laughed and she gave me a lazy smile.

"Any plans for today?"

"I just wanna spend the day with my girlfriend. Can you believe it's Christmas soon? What do you want anyway?", I asked.

"I have you, that's enough" she kissed me.

"Then how do you plan spending Christmas?"

"Don't know, have you got something special planned?" She smiled at me and hair fell over her face. She looked so hot I just wanted to kiss her and touch her ....

"I thought about spending it with both our families maybe? Maybe the boys too.... But you decide"

"I don't care. As long as you're with me, everything is alright"

"Then I'm inviting the boys too? " She nodded and I gave her a smile.

"I'm hungry", she said and placed her hand on her tummy.

"Let's get you something to eat" I pulled her out of bed and gave her a piggyback ride into the kitchen.

After we had breakfast we cuddled up in bed, watching TV.

"I have to tell you something", she said.

"What is it?", I asked genuinely worried.

"I'm one month over", she whispered.

"You mean - you may be -"

"I don't know. Would you be - angry?"

"No, I would never be angry. I love you and I would love to be parents with you."

"Isn't it to early, or so?", she asked worried.

"It's not to early, I love you. And I love you no matter what happens. If you are pregnant or if you're not"

"That means so much to me", she whispered and kissed me

"We're gonna buy you a pregnancy test now, okay?", I asked and she nodded. We stood up, changed and went to get a pregnancy test. I somehow couldn't really contain all the information. She may be pregnant? I may be a father?

It took us ten minutes to drive to the shop, buy all the pregnancy tests we could get and drive back home. I just hopped that no one recognised us, because I don't wanted rumours to spread. The cashier looked at us weirdly, maybe because we are still so young. Anyway, I don't care about that kind of shit.

"Can you stay outside?", Chrissy asked and I wanted to protest, but then I saw her face and nodded. It felt like it took ages before she came outside again. Her face was pale. She took my hand and led me into the bathroom. All the tests were spread on the sink. They all were positive.

"Oh my - you are pregnant? We're getting a baby?!" I cheered and spun her around in my arms. First kissing her lips, then her belly. "I can't believe that there's a little you or a little me in there." I whispered against her belly and she giggled. "We're going to the doctor tomorrow and -"

"Hey hey, I'm not even a month pregnant and don't you wonder how it happened?"

"I don't care." I paused. "It's my child though?"

"Sure", she laughed and kissed me.

"I love you two so much", I said in her mouth and she wrapped her legs around my waist, still kissing me.

"When are we gonna tell the others?", I asked.

"When everything is set. We are not even sure. I'm gonna go to the doctor tomorrow to get everything checked and so"

"I can't keep that secret", I whined.

"You'll have to", she said and jumped down.

"Be careful please", I said and I knew - even though she wasn't facing me - she rolled her eyes.

"Let's go, get you something to eat" I grabbed her hand we went to the kitchen were the other boys were.

"Where were you?", Luke asked.

"Shopping", I mumbled and pulled Chrissy onto my lap. My hands rested over her belly and I felt her relaxing against my chest.

( merry Christmas to everyone who celebrates! I hope you are all fine and you have a beautiful christmas. Remember I love you and your sunshine loves you too)