BACK THEN *ON HOLD*

C H A P T E R E I G H T

" Give your all to me

I'll give my all to you "

"I have to go now Calum"

"See you, I had a beautiful first day back in England" He smiled.

"See you" Calum brought me to the door and said goodbye to me with a kiss.

I went slowly to my house and opened the door with my key. Nobody was home, because my parents were still working so I had the whole apartment for me. I let my thoughts wander.

It surely was good, for our first time and without a doubt, I would do it again with him. But I'm just 15 and he's sixteen, wasn't it to early?

But even if I wanted to - which I certainly don't - I could never change it. And I'm glad that I did it with him, the boy I love. The only body I ever loved. The boy that laughed with me, the boy I tell all my secrets...

I never thought I could be so deeply in love with just fifteen years, I never thought real love existed. I never thought I could be in love with anyone because of my fear, but here he is: the boy I just had my first time with. And I was feeling good, a little bit sore but fine.

I layed back on my bed and closed my eyes, I just hoped that my mum would not find out, because than she would do the Talk with me again. And if rather not do it, again.

I felt my mobile buzz in my pocket. It was a text from Calum.

Miss you, love you, can't wait for the next time ;)

I love you too and I can't wait either ;)

I smiled and closed my eyes hoping for sleep to come. I slowly drifted into a light, dreamless sleep.

"Chrissy. You have to wake up now!", I heard the voice of my mum. I slowly opened my eyes and closed them as I saw the bright lights. I grunted and hit a pillow over my eyes to avoid the lights.

"you have to be in school in twenty minutes, darling", she said and I immediately sat up, wincing because of the pain down there. My mum smiled at me wisely, she knew it, no doubt in that. She gave me a 'we are talking later' smile and stood up from my bed. "hurry up". With that she leaved the room and I got up to get ready.

I think I never got ready that fast, I had my hair and make-up done in five minutes and needed two minutes to eat breakfast. After that I jumped into my mother's car and she drove as fast as possible to my school. I got there exactly in time and spring Ted into my classroom, fortunately the teacher wasn't there so I coil just sat down onto my seat next to Calum.

"Hellon, Hun, are you okay? Have you been running?" Calum greeted me with a kiss on the lips.

"I overslept and only had twenty minutes to get ready" Calum laughed but was interrupted by our English teacher walking in.

The class was horrible, as always, but with Calum by my side it made way much more fun than without him.

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"Have you written songs yourself yet?", I asked Calum. He blushed a bit and nodded. "Can you Play one for me please?"

"Oh, no, I don't wanna." I gave him puppy-dog eyes, knowing he couldn't resist this. "One song!", he laughed and grabbed his guitar. He started playing a soft melody, his eyes always watching me.

Even when the sky is falling down

Even when the earth is cramping around my feet

Even when we try to say goodbye

And you can cut the tension with a knife in here

He sang and it was wonderful. I could listen to his voice all day. By the time he finished I had goosebumps all over my arms. "This was beaztiful", I smiled and gave Calum a kiss on the cheek. He blushed a bit and I giggled.

He put the guitar back on its place and pulled me I to his arms. I felt his warm breath on my hair. His lips wandering down to my neck, I turned it slightly to gave him more access and he sacked lightly at the skin. I moaned lightly as he found my sweet spot and nipped on it with his teeth.

"I want you", Calum whispered against my skin.

"But your parents are home", I whispered back.

"I don't care"

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***Calums POV***

It was midnight and I was watching Chrissy sleep. Normally she had to be home, but I couldn't bring myself to wake her. She was a mystery, when she was with me, she was carefree, open. And when she was with strangers she couldn't bring herself to say one word.

We still had no answers, but she 'got better'. She talked to her whole family now and sometimes even with my sister and my mother. And on the telephone she could talk to anyone. I was happy for her, she got happier everyday I saw her and I couldn't bear to tell her that I had to go to Australia in three weeks. But she would be angry if I would only tell her at the airport, like the last time.

I gently tugged a strand of her dark brown hair behind her ear and gave her a kiss on the cheek. "I love you" I wrapped my arms around her torso and fell asleep to her steady breathing.

{I know it's sooo short and I'm really sorry! and I'm also sorry that I haven't updated in nearly a week, but I'm in school and I have to get ready for Spain and- I'm rambling, I'm sorry.

This chapter is dedicated to @Noureeeeen because she dedicated a chapter to me and she is my pen friend here on Wattpad :)

Hope you liked that chapter, please vote comment and maybe even follow :)

~Lara}