BACK THEN *ON HOLD*

C H A P T E R S I X

" It kills me thinking of you on your own

And I wish I was back home next to you "

***Calum's POV***

I haven't seen Chrissy in over six weeks now and I miss her. She might not understand that but I miss her like hell. And I was jealous. That she could talk to Ashton over the phone. I was not the only one now. I wasn't special anymore. It was selfish, I knew it. I was happy for her too, I wished for her that she could be a bit more outgoing.

But this fear was a part of her. If it wasn't for that fear, she would be totally different. Maybe she wouldn't be my girlfriend! She was perfect the way she was and she didn't need to change, but if she wanted to I wouldn't prevent her from that. Even though it could mean that I'll lose her.

Someone once said: If you love something, let it go, if it loves you back it'll come back to you. I hope that Chrissy loves me and will come back to me.

"Mate, everything okay?" I heard Michael approaching.

"Sure"

"It seems like you're not really with us, mate, you can talk to us." He smiled and I nodded. "Stand up, Luke wants to record a video"

"So he's serious about the YouTube thing?" Michael laughed and nodded. "Are we supposed to be with him on the videos?" I was shocked, Luke really wanted to upload videos of us performing. Michael nodded again.

"Luke, you can't be serious", I said to him and he turned around, his guitar on his lap.

"I am, it'll be fun" He smiled a encouraging smile. I sighed and sat down next to him.

"Why am I doing this?", I asked myself. Luke only laughed.

"So, Teenage Dirtbag" He started the camera and we began to perform the only song we knew. It went on pretty well but I didn't wanted Luke to upload the video on YouTube.

Luke didn't even bother to cut the video, he just put it in the internet.

Three weeks after we uploaded our first video we had 200 clicks and 100 likes. Most of the comments was 'you are so good' 'you guys are insane'. Which was completely insane for us. We also had 101 subscribers. We decided to upload every week at least once and our fan base grew bigger.

I couldn't quite believe that people in our school knew us and told us how good we were.

I haven't told Chrissy about it yet. I didn't exactly knew why, but I felt it was better if she didn't knew. At least not yet.

It will still be I've four months until I go back to her again. Which is such a long time. But I was happy here with my friends and didn't wanted to leave them again, for who-knows-how-long. Maybe that's one of the reasons why I didn't told Chrissy about our success. I didn't want it to look like I won't come back because of the band. We weren't really famous yet, so why did I bothered to think about it?

"CALUM" My head snapped around only to face Luke. "What's up, Mate? You seem like you're in your own little world all the time!"

"I'm sorry Luke. I was just thinking"

"Okay, we are gonna go eat a pizza, wanna come too?" I nodded and lazily stood up.

*

"This pizza is awesome! I didn't knew how much I missed this place" I laughed while eating my third slice of pizza. The boys agreed with a mouthful of the delicious pizza.

I heard my mobile ring in my pocket and quickly got up to answer it. It was probably my mum or Chrissy.

I found out that it was my mum by looking on my phone screen. I pressed the green button and was greeted by my mum. She was lovely and I missed her like hell, I missed everybody back home, but I also loved Australia and the boys. I wished I could just get both. My family, Chrissy and the boys here in Australia. But I knew it wasn't possible.

I talked with my mum for about eight minutes and she told me how she missed me and was worried about me because I was 'alone in a foreign country'. Which was not true but I didn't told her. I also promised her to take care of myself and then I hung up.

As I sat back down I saw that my pizza has disappeared. "Michael? Where's my pizza?"

"I was hungry", he said and the boys laughed, including me.

{Sorry for not updating in like a week. I hope you won't be mad at me.

I'm also sorry that my chapter are that short in the last time, but I don't have that much motivation and I have school. And in about two weeks and two days I'm going to Spain for an exchange and I don't know if I'll update in that time. I thought I should apologise before I'm going there.

Hope you guys enjoyed that chapter.

If you did (even If you didn't) please vote and comment, I want to know what you think ;)

One thing: This story is not really AU, you may have noticed that 5sos is existing, but the story is slightly different.

~Lara}