Liam

Chapter 30

•Complicated•

Winter

The sun shone brightly in my face waking me up for another day. Reaching for my phone I saw a few messages, one that surprised me as hell.
My eyes were still full of sleep so I rubbed them throughouly to make sure I was seeing correctly.

Lee

Hey i know it's a bit sudden but i just need to say it so i know we have parted ways a bit and have talked rarely to never talked in the past time and even if i didn't show thaaaaat much it hurt me too you know what i mean? I know i am not an expert in showing my emotions but i talked many times to my mother and i cried too and my mother said that she misses you too and that she thinks it's a great loss that we aren't like we used to be.
I know that i realized it very late if not too late that i wasn't always fair to you and i know that i hurt you with my behavior towards you and i'm super sorry like we used to do something every day and that it isn't like that anymore makes me miss it so much and i know that now you're with this Alessia and your new "friends" with whom you can have fun with and i wish nothing more than for you to be happy
I know this is written a bit messy because i'm writing it spontaneous and have no idea how to write this
So however i want to apologize and i mean it serious serious yk and i want to tell you that you are still very important to me and if you don't feel the same way (sounds bit gay) i completely understand
I would just really be very happy if we could completely start over because honestly i just miss you so much and just throw out all the bad vibes
If you say for yourself no i don't wanna do this, i can understand ngl but if you want to we don't have to be like best friends from the very beginning but we can move in like baby steps yk?
2:04 am

Oh and i would be super glad if you came to my birthday that's comin up! 2:06 am

I shook my head tears falling out my eyes, why did she have to do it now? To be completely honest, I would have forgiven her, without a doubt but I can't. I don't hate her, I really do not I wish for nothing but for her to be happy too. But I don't want to do this. It's time I learned from my mistakes.

Lee, I have tried one too many times to give you a second chance but you did not want them that is why I am sorry but I cannot bring myself to give you one especially at this point of time where everything is already too late. I appreciate the fact that you keep my matters to yourself this is, of course, based on reciprocity your secrets will remain secrets. I wish for you to be happy, really. Thank you for the invitation but I am done with a l l of you.
10:18 am

I got up to brush my teeth and get ready for the day leaving my phone in my room.

Third Person

Winter took a long, relaxing shower trying to get everything off of her mind. As the hot water streamed down her body, she at first didn't notice the tears that ran down with it, she didn't want to cry, they didn't deserve her tears, the satisfaction of causing her inner pain. A sob left her lips as she rested her head against the cold, steamed up tiles.

After a while she left the bathroom completely freshened up, but if you looked closely you could see her puffy red-rimmed eyes and running nose though it could be excused with a cold.

The moment she entered the kitchen, she wished she hadn't; there in front of her sat her mother and the rest of the people who lived in the house, she couldn't refer to them as family members, not now.