touch me e.d

thirteen

chapter 13
don't play song yet
back 2 days

grantdol;

right after rose left to go back home i stayed in the dungeon to clean all the materials we used.

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"i'm home," i yelled as i walked in. my sister comes running down the stairs and hugs me.

"hey," i said. i hugged her back. she pulls away and when i noticed that she was crying. her eyes were red, puffy, and still had tears in them. "what's wrong?" i asked her. olivia and i were never close but we always talked to each other when we needed someone to listen.

"my mom is in the hospital," she tries her best not to cry anymore. "she's been so sick lately but we thought it was a cold or something. we took her to go see a doctor but she was diagnosed with cancer," that's when she starts to weep again. i didn't know what to say to her. i never felt so helpless with someone being so vulnerable.

"she's going to be okay. your mom is a fighter and trust me we both know that. remember when i snuck in your house and she nearly hit me with a bat?" she starts to laugh a little. it made me feel way better now that i made her laugh. but i can't even imagine how this is worrying her.

you can tell she isn't even getting sleep at night. "olivia don't worry about it. please get some sleep you need it. tomorrow i don't have school so we can go out and do what you want," i smiled at her. she nods her head at me.

"thank you," she smiles at me. before she leaves she said. "also i know what you did today but i won't tell anyone. i always knew you were weird," she laughed softly and goes back upstairs.

my stepdad just scoffed when he seen me. "your mother will be upset if she finds out about your lifestyle. get a job and start to move out instead of wasting your money on your whips," he said, the only reason why stepdad knows about it is because they were going through my room and found all my stuff. they put two and two together but he never told my mom. i guess he told my step sister.

"what i do outside of this house it's no one's business," i responded back to him.

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i was now at my friends house since i didn't want to get into a fight with my step dad. i can't have my mom find out about my interests. i don't know what she would think about it but i don't need to know now. "hey, i need to talk to you." i tell her

"yeah, come in," she opens the door we both take a seat on her couch so i start to rant to her. "i don't know what the fuck to do. i feel like everyone in my house is finding out about what i choose to do on my free time. what if my mom finds out? i would disappoint her,"

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back 2 days

rose;
play song

"rose," my dad calls me as i'm walking up the stairs. "we need to talk to you," he said seriously and it scared me.

"yeah?" i asked, they were both sitting on the table looking very upset. you can tell my mom was crying earlier which scared me even more. i didn't know what to expect from them. so much has been going on outside of this house. my mom wasn't even saying anything because she was too busy trying not to cry. "mom what's going on?" i asked anxiously, the more they let the silence take over the more i feared what would happen next.

"your twin sisters were adopted," once those words left his words i couldn't help but freak out.

"how? i thought my aunt was going to take them with her? why can't we take them in?" i start to ramble instead of crying. i haven't seen those girls in seven years and i was going to finally see them but now i have to wait again.

the feeling inside of me felt like i wasn't able to breathe anymore. my chest began to hurt and my breathing go uneven. "that's- not fair. i waited so long to seem them and now i can't?" i start to cry

"i'm sorry. but their foster mom couldn't take care of them. we can't take them in because we were asked to choose between you and them. you were so much older so we chose you," you can hear the pain in my moms voice. it was all shaken up and her eyes were so puffy from crying.

i couldn't handle the fact that i was already losing them. i run to my room and instantly start crying in bed.

[flash back]

"we are going to take you to go see your sisters today," my foster mom said, i get off the car to walk into mc donald's and through the window i see them running away from each other. it pained me that i was the reason that they weren't with my parents. if i never said anything i wouldn't be away from them and my parents.

when i walk to the playground i hug them and give them a kiss. "ew," my sister said. it was funny how every time i kissed her she would say ew. she never liked getting kisses but we all kissed her to annoy her. one of my sisters goes down the slide with me and most of the time we were both laughing as we went down. once we made it down i go to the slide with my other sister. but now it was time to go back home.

we weren't in the same foster homes. each time it was time to leave i always felt like crying because it was never enough. the time always went by quick and it wasn't what i needed. i wanted my parents to be here as well. but i know the time would kill my mom the most.

[end of flashback]

their adoptive mom wanted us to wait till they are eighteen. which meant i needed to wait eight more years. i wasn't prepared to keep waiting any longer. i would kill to have another five minutes with them. but what i mostly wanted was for my mom to see her daughters. she tries to hide it but every april she cries even if she denies it. it's another birthday we miss every year.

i never cry on april but last year i did. i remembered it was their birthday so i texted my mom about it. we both started to cry.

my mom is always being asked where my twin sisters are at. she tells them that they are with their real dad but it's just a cover up from the truth. even though half of the people who ask already know the truth they still ask. i think they just want my mom to admit it but she still can't. it honestly annoys me when they ask about them when they already know what happened. it may of happened years ago but it's something you can't move on from so easily.

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this was a shitty chapter but i kinda cried writing this since the part of the twin sisters is true. i won't be using their real names. but it has been 6-7 years since i last seen them. [dont ask questions about them please, i'll delete them]thoughts?