touch me e.d

eight

chapter 8

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rose;

i go back to her room to give her a piece of my mind. i open her door just standing in the door way. she just stared at me. "you're a fucking liar,"

"you never thought to tell me why you actually left but you told charlie? lia, i was there for you all the time and that didn't cross your head?" i went on and all she did was continue to look at me.

she gets up from the bed and stands there with her arms by her hips. "what do you want me to say?" she responded back in such a sassy tone

i sighed in the way she chose to respond. "i just want the truth lia," at the same time i wanted to yell at her for all the pain she caused me when she left. she dumped me with no explanation whatsoever and left. she didn't have to see me in such a bad state of mind. maybe, she was in pain but how would i know if i didn't hear from her again till the day she came back.

even if the truth would hurt me i wanted to know why she left. i didn't want to go back to sleepless nights asking myself if i did something wrong. i didn't want to be the one crying for her still an feeling so stupid for it. everyone in school knew we were a couple and when she left everyone seen how bad i got when i got the news. she dumped me in the hallway of school and then she left.

"i'm sorry if i hurt you but i don't think the reason really matters now," she says looking down at her feet.

she couldn't even look at my face. "rose, just please let it go," i bite my bottom lip holding back the tears from running down my cheeks. how can i let go?

"i can't let it go," i said and you can hear the cracks in my voice in between each word

she finally has the courage to look at me. "why not? it's not that hard to do it,"

"you hurt me and expect me to be okay? i didn't even get an answer from you. after you left i was a fucking mess but obviously that doesn't matter. did our relationship mean nothing to you?" the tears begin to stain my cheeks as they streamed

"i had to leave because i couldn't keep up with the fact that i didn't deserve you. i also needed to be with my family for a while and it made me see things,"

"what do you mean you didn't deserve me?" i asked

"you were a rebound, rose. after things ended with ethan i was deeply hurt because there was no way our relationship would go back to the way it would. i knew you had a crush on me so i took advantage," i can see the damn shame on her face

"you lied to me for two years of us being together? what the fuck is wrong with you? how can you fake all of that?" i started to yell

i never felt like a huge dumbass in my life. all those times i debated if i should reach out to her. the times i didn't sleep from all the crying i did. this whole time i was the moron here because she didn't give a fuck. she didn't even bother to think how much this would hurt me. what kind of fucked up person does this? lia.

"rose, i'm sorry but i also cheated on you on our 10th month," she says and again she looks down at her feet instead of me.

"you dragged me into your little world and leave? you lied about our whole relationship but also cheated? why? you're such a low bitch for doing this to me! i gave you everything lia," i start to yell and cry at the same time.

"were they better in bed when it came to sex? you spanking me not enough? you're pathetic but i'm done," she looks at me confused

"done?" she asked i wipe my tears and say.

"you wanted to know who marked me? it was ethan who did it. but guess what i didn't fuck him because of the feelings i had for you and what you got me into. that account on twitter you texted for boob pictures was me! do you know how hard it was for me not to ask why you left?" she stood there shocked just looking at me. i can see that it hurt her but it wasn't compared to what she's making me feel. i don't want to be that bitch who wants their ex to feel hurt.

i was too caught up in the moment. "you knew it was going to hurt me so you told me didn't you?" her eyes were watery

"make up your mind and do what you really want. i wish you nothing but the best but stay the fuck away from me," i storm out of her room.

as i ran outside i bumped into ethan. why was he here? "what are you doing here?" i asked him not bothering to hide the fact that i was crying.

"i saw your car and i've been texting you," he looks at me concerned. "what did she do to you?" he looks down at me with a small frown on his face. i can tell he hasn't shaved from how close he was standing to me.

i never realized how ethan always was here to help but all i did was push him away. "she told me- why she left. she cheated on me and lied about our whole relationship," sadly i start to sob again but this time he pulls me in his arms. he puts his hand on my head just playing with my hair as i continued to cry.

maybe, it was for the best i would find about. i needed to stop crying for her. "it's going to be okay," he whispers to me

"it's not fair ethan. i gave her everything i was able to," i pull looking at him and he still had a frown plastered on his face.

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i go home to find my parents sitting in the kitchen table eating. "rose?" my mom and dad yell out. "can we talk to you?" they asked but i didn't want to go down because of the mess i currently looked.

"yeah?" i said from my room

"we need you outside with us," they insisted so i wash my face but it still looked like i was crying for the longest.

i walk out with my head hung low. "i wanted to say i'm sorry for the way i've been acting. i want you to invite ethan for dinner tomorrow," he says and i finally looked at them. "i love you don't ever forget,"

"i love you too dad," i run over and hug him

"what happened to you? rosie why have you been crying?" my mom attacks me with questions all at once

"i don't want to talk about it, yet."

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i'm sad re-reading this again.

—maritza 😰