touch me e.d

twenty-seven

chapter 27

rose;

"dad, i'm sorry and i understand where you're coming from but you can't keep putting these walls up and expect me to know what's going on right away, it's not fair anymore," i go on

i truly regret being so rude to him but how was i supposed to know he was doing this to protect me in such an odd way. "we tried so hard, your mother and i didn't know what to do when lia left," he looks at the floor instead of looking at me

"i know and i'm sorry for leaving you guys out in the dark," i start to feel my throat going all dry on me-he finally looks back at me.

"i know i can be an asshole but i care about you even if it doesn't seem like it. imagine when you have your own kids some day and they get heartbroken it's too painful to watch. we had to see that for a long time and i'm scared i'll have to see you like that again," he starts to shake a little

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next morning

"rose, i've been looking for you," jonathan jumps out of no where right in front of me.

"oh hey," i said and he smiled at me.

jonathan is cute but the thing is he's like the guy you would have a huge crush but just for his looks and not date him"did you need something or?" i asked him and he slowly turned red.

"oh yeah, i forgot but can you be my partner for the project?" he asked and i nod. "thank you," he smiles again but slowly it turns into a frown, the marks on my neck.

"you welcome, well i need to go," i said, i start walking away from him and i instantly see charlie struggling to open up his locker. "hey bitch," i said laughing.

he moves aside and i begin to unlock his locker for him, not the first time he struggles.

charlie stood there behind me just smirking at me. "what?" i asked confused

he didn't say a word but continued to look at me with a huge smirk across his face. "your not good at hiding them," he laughed and i turned red charlie and i start walking around school just talking about last night what went down with ethan.

while we were walking i can see ethan with the corner of my eye talking to his usual group of friends.his hair looked nappy but it yet looked good. i look away as we walked further away from him. "rose, do you like him?" charlie pops the question

"uh, no. it's no strings attached," i said calmly but i didn't even know if i did.

ethan, is the cliche bad boy and it's sad if you ask me. because it's always the the cliche story of how the girl falls for the bad boy hoping they fall in love and get together at the end of the story. this wasn't that, hopefully it was.

ethan has his habits along with myself. i know he doesn't like to be tied down especially right after lia. so even if i did like ethan it wouldn't work out with him. our relationship was based off sex, sex only. but i won't lie when i say that it sometimes does burn a little thinking about the whole thing because i can see myself falling for him. he's so unpredictable so i never know what to expect from him.

one day it's rough sex on the table the other is soft sex with no rules or punishments."what about jonathan, i'm sure he has a thing for you," he asked

i nod my head. "we are just friends so i don't think so," i shrugged. i sometimes got the feeling jonathan did have a small crush on me but who am i to know? 

besides i didn't feel the same way about him if he were to like me. have you ever had moments when you're like, a guy will like you and you'll like someone else but they reject because you rejected the guy who likes you? i think like that too much and it hurts sometimes.

it reminds me of all my elementary school crushes, like when i used to have a huge crush on this boy named joey but he liked sabrina instead. i remember going up to him to tell him i had a crush on him, but i was quick to hear him telling his friend that he liked sabrina. i left the playground and cried for the rest of my recess.

imagine a little girl with a blue skirt and a white shirt filled with glitter that said your dreams come true along with a single braid. i was the girl who cried on the bench covering my head with my knees. i thought i experienced the worst heart break, i was wrong.

the next week after my little heartbreak i started to like this boy named jose, who turned out to like me but showed it in a mean way by pulling on my braids.

new messages

@ethandolan: i see you're showing the marks i left last night

@rosesucks: well that's because i forgot about them..

@ethandolan: ouch that hurt, do you need to be spanked?😇

@rosesucks: i wouldn't mind.

@ethandolan: mmm i'll think about it

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in class..

jonathan and i sat next to each other for the project we had to do for english. "remember to pick an artist for your project and as for why they are better in a way, this will be the only non english related project we will have, the student who convinces me the best will get an automatic A. but remember everyone has to have a different artist no repeating so write them down along with two backups,"

"what do you wanna pick?" i asked

"i know you're going to write halsey, but i can pick the next one. write down the weeknd, you can have the last choice,"

1. halsey 2. the weeknd 3. troye sivan

i put my paper in a box and hope to get my first pick. suddenly i feel paper being thrown at me. i turn around to see jonathan make paper balls and aiming at me, he wouldn't stop laughing at my reaction. i start to tug at his shirt to get the paper out of his hands. "mr. ross asked if he can have some copy paper," we hear a deep masculine voice

jonathan continues to play around with me so i do it back. i look up to see ethan staring at me with a glare. i bite my bottom lip feeling intimidated by his stare even though he was halfway across the room. jonathan finally stopped once he seen me look at ethan most of the time. the tension in the room felt uncomfortably heavy but he finally left."you like him, don't you?" he asked writing on his paper

"no," i said quickly he shrugs now looking at me.

"it's noticeable, look i know you guys have something going on but i've been trying to get your attention all month so i'm gonna be straight forward, i like you. i don't know how you haven't noticed when i've been obvious about it,"

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—maritza 🥴