touch me e.d

thirty-five

chapter 35
lunch

rose;

it was the time i was kinda hesitant on, the talk with ethan he asked for earlier. my mom and chloe keep telling me how i need to listen to his side even though the first time went down hill quickly. maybe this time everything will go smoothly as he plans. they second time is a charm but halsey says, "all i do is cry and complain because second's not the same"

he was walking right next to me and i can feel the tension between us an awkward tension. i wanted to be the one to reassure him it was going to be okay but i remembered how it was up to me if it was going to end okay for us.

it was up to him on what he holds back and what he's going to say getting me to change my mind. meanwhile i can hear charlie in the back of my head telling me it's a trap. my inner voice is always giving me mixed signals just like ethan did.

we go over to a table as we walk there i see charlie give me a disappointment look, it was written all over his face. he didn't need to say anything because i got the message. right by his side was lia, we make eye contact for a quick second and i see the hurt flash through her eyes.

she lost her own opportunity you didn't do this she did what she chose to do. you were enough for her to be fulfilled but she decided to chase after someone else who wasn't you. she made the wrong move, not you.

i shoot her smile but then i go back to looking at ethan sitting right in front of him. i can feel charlie and lia's eyes burn into my head as they kept staring at us making the tension grow.

"what did you want to talk about," i finally have the courage to break the silence. i can tell he was nervous once again but he attempts to hide it.

"about us, what happened at your house, i know we keep going back to this," he goes on telling me and this time i hope he somehow convinced me. i wanted to ignore the voice telling me to not to fall for his charm but im intending to.

"at least we won't have charlie here trying to throw you under the bus but is there something i should know before it blows right in my face?" i asked

he stops to think. "no, he pretty much told you," he shrugs "but i was going to tell you in a better way then what he did. i'm sorry," he repeats

charlie is going to hate me. "it's okay, i forgive you," i tell him and he looks back at me surprised

ethan;

"it's okay, i forgive you," she tells me and i can't help but widened my eyes at her. this was too easy and it kinda scares me. i had a whole speech ready on why she should consider giving me a chance

"are you still going to see jonathan after school?" i asked but i'm sure she heard the anger behind my voice. even if he told me he wasn't going to get in my way i didn't trust him around her. i don't like the idea of them being alone together. "you threw everything away didn't you," i mention remembering everything i seen in the trash bags

she nods. "i'm letting go that part of me, at least i hope to it only brought me trouble," she lightly chuckles

"me," i said biting down on my lip, by trouble she meant me.

she's quick to change the subject. "how did you know it was me behind the account?"

"i told you, you were posting on that account when i was next to you. you were tweeting about how you wanted someone to tease you in public risking the chances of being caught. after that i got to see your username and i was shocked you even thought like that. i always thought you were a prude," i laugh