chapter 38 recap: ethan seen his dad when he tried to talk to his mom but it just ended with ethan taking a hit on his dad. grayson is doubting to form a relationship with his biological mother but his boyfriend jace is trying to convince him. rose is missing what she had with ethan.
rose;
i was back home just lying down in bed hoping to get some sleep. i was avoiding charlie and lia from all their constant phone calls that i'm not picking up on.
so i close my eyes hoping all my thoughts go to peace, for them to finally stop all at once.
"hi princess," he calls me out of my trance his eyes were focused on me. i look around to seeing myself sitting on the edge of the bed wearing a red stain dress.
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my chest was out and exposed for him to see. he got a clear view from where he was standing from. i can see his eyes looking down at my chest not even bothering to hide the fact he was staring at them. he looks back at me licking his bottom lip seductively.
he passed his hands through his messy black hair letting out a groan. "you're driving me insane with that tight dress on," he tells me making me smirk
i loved the idea of the affect i had on him just by sitting here wearing a tight red satin dress.
he gets dangerously closer to me trying to close the huge gap between us but i stop him. "don't," i let out and he looks at me confused
"beg for it," i said smiling at him.
this time i was going to be the one in control not him. i'm not giving it up so easily anymore. "are you sure princess, is that what you want to do? you'll be punished," he reminds me
i gently nodded my head. i knew what i was getting myself into it was all part of the game, breaking all the rules. "did i stutter?" i asked harshly
he just looks at me with his mischievous smile growing on his face. "i asked you a question, i expect an answer," he challenged me
he wasn't going to get his way at least not yet not until i have my own fun. "beg," i demand now. i wasn't asking him i was telling him to do something so i expect him to do so.
he shakes his head at me still smirking. "this isn't your part," he teases
"the roles change," i fire back
this was his way of changing things on me, i won't give in. "then looks like you're not getting your way," he tells me sounding so sure about it
don't give up, i tell myself.
but i take my eyes off of him once i see two tan little girls standing in the doorway just glancing at me. they had brown curly hair all the way to their shoulders with a cute grin on their face. they wouldn't stop laughing whispering at one another.
i get up leaving ethan behind. "hi.." i start stammering and they stopped giggling once i walk over to them.
its them. my twin sisters, it's really them. "i missed you guys so much," i start crying once they are finally looking at me. i've been waiting for this moment my whole life. they are finally in front of me, this wasn't a picture on a phone.
it's been years since i last seen them. the last i seen them they were still babies. i can't help but break a sob but still smiled somehow.
they kept looking at me confused on why i was even freaking out right now. i reach in to hug the two little girls who i've been missing my whole life just for them to flinch when i get near them.
"who are you?" the girls look at me scared
my heart sinks once i realized they don't know who i am. why is this hurting me more then how it hurt not seeing them? this was another stab to the heart hearing those words leave their lips. "mommy," they called out asking for help
they don't remember me.
"yes," a lady comes up looking at me breaking in tears. i don't think she recognizes me as well i was really young when i first met her. "who are you?" she asked looking at me horrified
"rose," i tell her
i turn around seeing that ethan was gone, so were they. the room completely changed, i wasn't wearing a satin dress anymore but old clothes. the room goes pitch dark on me making me feel stupid and ashamed of myself.
all the guilt was back stabbing me once again. "i'm sick of crying," i tell myself
"you won't be sad forever," i hear a voice but no one was to be found, i couldn't even see anything.
suddenly the room goes all bright out of no where. i start looking all around me trying to find them. i can't lose them again, i can't. "where are you?" i called out wishing they answer back to the girl who broke down in front of them leaving them mortified
i start panicking once no one answers me back. why do i keep losing them?
what do i do?
i stop looking and now i'm on my knees just crying. i put my hands on my head lowering it down to the floor covering myself. "not again," i cried out
"please come back, im sorry," i keep going on
"come back! come back! i don't want this anymore!" i yelled on top of my lungs. i was done living with the guilt and pain building up inside.
"rose," someone calls out my name
i wake up, it was a dream. the only real thing that happened out of that dream is me crying in bed. the only thing that didn't happen that i hoped for to be true is for them to be back home with us.
ethan;
after arguing with my 'dad' nonstop he finally leaves. i get my mom alone hoping to convince her to let grayson move in temporarily. "mom," i said
"no, i know what you're going to ask." she responds to me harsh looking at me disgusted. "how can you do this?" she asked feeling betrayed
i scoffed. "you did this," i tell her "i'm going to my room i don't want to waste more time arguing with air heads," i spat
i didn't even bother looking back at my mother because i know the look she has on her face. i don't understand how she didn't back up grayson. there is nothing wrong with him being gay, he shouldn't be scared to be out. i kinda understand why he was a little hesitant in telling me because of our 'dad'
"olivia, i met him," i tell her and she smiles at me. "thank you," i hug her — this is a random update but i may be deciding if i should just post not have an updating schedule. i'll just try to post as much as i can during the week !!
