touch me e.d

forty-one

recap: ethan and rose talked things out and she finally accepted to be something with ethan.

chapter 41

rose;

after being out with ethan our most of the day i finally get home. i walk in the door trying not to make any noise to wake my parents up since it's late for them and i do have school tomorrow. it was pitch dark as im trying to get to my room. my phone was dead so that wasn't an option for me right now.

not caring i just turn on the lights walking up to my room but my dad was waiting for me. i mentally groan inside my head wishing he was sleeping with my mom. but instead he's going to lecture me on how i shouldn't be out late on a school day or any type of day.

"we need to talk," he says low looking at me concerned.

he sounds worried but i don't know what to expect from him anymore. he's always catching me off guard these past few months.

"yeah?" i questioned sitting next to him.

he lets out a sigh. "i'm sorry for the way i've been acting with you. i'm sure ethan is a great guy but charlie kept telling me how he wasn't-," he was cut off by me

"charlie?" i said in disbelief "why would you believe him over me?"

"you only talk to your mother not me," he shrugs

he's right. "you could've seen for yourself instead of being so hard on him."

"i know and i'm sorry but i hate how he was the one lia cheated on with. after all that i don't want him near you no matter how much of a good guy he is, you are better then that rose," he says as his voice starts getting angry

now this is the part that doesn't even surprise me anymore. the fact that charlie is still trying to ruin whatever i have with ethan is starting to bug me.

my dad has such high standards for me he doesn't even know i'm the one who agreed to have a sex thing with ethan. that on the bed he's sitting on is where most of it happened. he still sees me as a fragile little girl who can't take care of herself just because her girlfriend dumped her, leaving her all alone.

i won't be that girl anymore. "i'm not a little girl anymore i know what i'm doing," i defend myself

he shakes his head. "if you're so mature you won't pick him. you're only going to do that to piss me off it's what you like to do," he snapped

"what are you even saying?" i scoffed

"you dated lia to get under my skin just like you're going to do with ethan," he looks at me

i start hysterically laughing at him. i couldn't believe that he was making this about him. i fell in love with lia just to piss off my dad and definitely got my heart torn in two just to mess with him, yup.

"please get out," i barked not raising my voice. the only reason why i'm not going off is because my mom won't be happy about it.

i'm growing tired of trying to get on my fathers good side that i can't seem to find anywhere. i'm starting to lose hope with trying to form a relationship with him.

"i won't repeat myself," i tell him

he starts getting up from the bed. "i just hope you know what you're doing. the right thing is leaving all them behind," he says

"by them you mean lia and ethan," i correct him

he stayed silent knowing i was right. my mom won't be too happy about this but it is what it is. i'm done with his judgment that never seems to stop.

he keeps walking and stops once he's standing by the doorway. "he also told me about what you have with ethan, it explains why he was always here and why you were with him. i'm disgusted with you." he looks at me grossed out

i can feel the shame clinging down on my body. it feels like a hard slap across the face hearing him say this. "is that what we taught you: to be a whore?" he raised his voice at me

without thinking clearly i take my hand and slap him on his right cheek. "i do what i choose to do," i tell him "it's my life not yours."

"you live under my roof. you don't pay rent to be sleeping with any person who gives you attention! i'm ashamed of you," he pushes even more trying to get the reaction he wants

my heart feels like it's crumbling the more he's telling me how disgusting i am to him. i may not have the best relationship with this man but i do care about him. it hurts me hearing him talk to me with no respect. it's like he's forgetting in his daughter that his wife gave birth to 17 years ago.

"aren't you always ashamed? you said the same thing with lia. you're never happy with anything, i'm even ashamed to be raised by you the fact your my father disgusts me." i yell at him

my voice begins to croak as the tears are reedy to burst out of my eyes. "you're a disgrace," he goes on

once again i become the weak girl who's crying in front of him. "you hurt everyone around you," i laugh still crying "including those who you love,"

i look at him and i see no pain, no regret in his eyes. he's been waiting to tell me this. it's like he gets off by this sort of shit.

then i see my mom standing there half sleep awakened by our bickering. "did you just call our daughter a whore? tell me i heard you wrong, nate," she looks up at my dad shocked waiting for his response

but instead of him trying to make things better he puts his hands up in defeat. "do you even know what she does with that boy? she submits to him like one! we didn't teach her to be that way," he yelled looking at me

"that's none of that our business. she's not a little girl anymore," she snapped "quite frankly i'm fed up with this act you put up,"

i look back and forth as they continue to argue about me still standing here. "she sure acts like one,"

i busted out laughing. they both look at me confused on what was so funny. this is all so funny and painful at the same time. "you make me laugh," i speak out looking right directly at my dad

he just glares at me. "you make this all about you but go ahead talk about how big of a whore i am, i don't care anymore. but to let you know charlie knew everything that lia did to me and he let me cry for her,"

"get out of my room, soon enough i'll be out of here so you don't need to see me anymore," i tell him and he walked me out with his fists to his side.
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