touch me e.d

twenty-three

chapter 23

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rose;

i walk by lia having her head inside her locker. i can tell how her shoulders kept going up and down. "lia?" i called out her name.

she didn't bother to look at me. i get closer to her and hear that she's crying."go away," she whispers trying to make it seem like she's not crying but instead of leaving i take her inside the bathroom.

luckily no one was out of classes yet.she stands there against the wall as she began to hyperventilate. "i'm sorry- i'm really sorry. i can't sleep anymore. all i can see is you crying and telling me how shitty i am. trust me i know that and i can't seem to live with myself," she starts sobbing

"lia, i need you to calm down. you're barely breathing," i place my hands onto her shoulders.

but instead she takes steps away from me.she was still sobbing and shaking as she spoke. "you should hate me, i hurt you. you gave me the best relationship you can give me and i took it for granted. i'm so sorry," she goes on.

i never seen her so broken before. when we were still together she would get sad but never have i seen her in this state. "i can't live with myself anymore," she said wiping away the tears trying to calm herself down i get closer to her and hug her.

she was right i should hate her for all the pain and confusion she put me through but i can't. because she made me happy even if she didn't know it or cared. "i forgive you," i whisper as i was looking at her in the eye. "we all move on and that's what i'm doing, you should do it too. i get where you're coming from that i should hate you but i can't. how can i hate someone who i once loved,"

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end of the day

lia;

"mom," i yell out her name. "mom," i continued to yell out loud. my voiced echoed all over the house

"lia, what's wrong?" she says quickly looking concerned. "sweetie, what's wrong? did someone hurt you?" she rambled i shake my head.

"no, i hurt someone. i remember how much pain dad put you through- yet i did the same thing to rose," i break down once more.

she stood there looking at me shocked. she wasn't saying anything anymore. i can tell how surprised she was, but i felt like i needed to apologize because my dad never did."i'm sorry," i said she lets out a breathe.

"i can tell how sorry you are but lia if you knew and seen how much your dad hurt me why did you do it? rose, is a beautiful girl who doesn't deserve that kind of treatment. i will always love you no matter what but i hope you learn from your mistakes because if you really cared about her you would've not done it." she said and that's when she comes to me with a huge hug."i'm working on it," i let out

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ethan;

@ethandolan: talk to me.

@rosesucks: no.

@ethandolan: please? i'll take you out to eat, no rules, no punishments. we will just talk and go over things if you'd like..

@rosesucks: fine, where at?

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after waiting for a long time she finally arrived at the cafe shop she chose. this is the same place where we met at when i first told her who i was when i was "grant"

"hey," she smiled at me, her hair was wavy, and had one the same clothes from earlier before.

"hi," i smiled awkwardly at her. "how are you," i asked still feeling so fucking awkward. i'm not used to talking to her like this anymore.