I Complain Too Much

Oh Look Izzy is rambling again since when did that happen? owo

(^^do you like the title hehe ^^) 

Oh, Izzy, why are you doing another chapter on this??? Oh, just because I literally crave attention because I'm basically a five year old stuck in the body of a teenager?? That sounds about right?? 

I'm not sure why I felt the need to question myself but, hey, I do that all the time anyway. Just internally, not in a rant book that people actually read......

Oh well, if you didn't know that I was a mess, (who am I kidding I'm still a mess), then sis catch up (non gender specific sis for the record). I'm a total mess. I've spent the last ten minutes procrastinating from writing a book which is literally no effort to write other than the effort to move my fingers. And I could argue that the effort required to move my fingers is exactly why I'm procrastinating. 

Also I should be homeworking but ew who does that, amiright? It's all about procrastinating from procrastinating from doing homework so that I panic when I only have one night to do like four million tasks and then curse my teachers for giving me so much to do...it's my own fault. 

In addition, the sheer amount of paper I should sort out is insane. My day folder is literally struggling to take in all the paper, and it's probably at least a hundred sheets per subject....four hundred sheets, give or take. All in one folder. 

Which I carry to school everyday. 

RIP my back lmao. But maybe now I've told you, y'all can bug me until I actually get it done. That might happen. And of course I'll let you know when I actually get it done. Otherwise that'd be mean. But by the time I remember to mention it, I'll need you to remind me to sort it out and get my shit into the other folders. 

Basically, my solution to the 'no carrying stuff is bad' problem was simple to start with. Having four folders, one for each subject, kept at home for easy access and only brought in when teachers wanted to see what my work was like. Having a day folder with several wallets so that different subjects are separate. 

But I never empty those wallets, so it just adds up. And the lined paper I currently use doesn't have the two convenient lil holes in it so I have to use a hole punch and honestly ya girl can't be bothered to go upstairs and grab it. That's too close to exercise and it was windy today anyway today so walking to school was NOT fun.

I know the UK doesn't have wind that bad compared to other places, but when your headphones are being blown out of your ears and your eyes are doing an ouch because the wind is doing a strong right in your face, it isn't fun. And I ain't used to that so it's like double whammy. 

I think I spent half my walk to school with my eyes closed or my face looking the wrong way. Didn't get run over or bump into anyone though, so my spacial awareness must have improved or something. 

Oh and talking about like space n shit, I'm in this theatre thing right, and we're doing a show and the dances are effort but that's beside the point. I joined coz my sister enjoyed it last year and I caught the bug. When you're a theatre kid, it comes naturally. You see theatre, you catch the vibe and wanna join in. Trust me, it's a thing that happens. 

But one of the friends (I think I can call her a friend i don't actually know) wanted to do one of the dances that all of us learned but we could sort of nope out of if we wanted. But she had no partner. So last night I basically got taught it so she gets a chance to do this dance which isn't overly complicated but be proud of me I didn't fall over!! 

My feet hurt by the end of the night tho because heels are horrible. Never wear heels, especially dance heels. Your feet are ouch by the end. 

And yes, I did just say that. The feet are ouch. 

But it's okay because they look cool. I finally understand that. You won't catch me suffering from anything else for beauty, I'm happy being a potato in the corner. As long as I have a laptop and music, (and basic needs in life like idk food as well, that does help) I'll be alright on my own in my corner. Just bring me hugs and BTS and I'll be happy hehe. 

Don't wear heels sitting down. That hurts the ankles, especially when they're more than an inch. Trust me on that.

What has this even become anymore? 

But honestly it's so hard to balance when your whole foot is balancing on your toes and this smol little circle at the back. If you tip over, you're screwed. Better hope the person next to you is more balanced and is willing to hold you up. 

Or there's a wall next to you. One of the two. 

I know this is shorter than normal but honestly at this point I'm too lazy to think of something to talk about so Imma just ask for forgiveness and hope you don't mind me leaving to jam to marina and try and do something productive. 

Stan Marina and the Diamonds you won't be disappointed. 

:) <3