Noticed it a few weeks after I turned eigtheen. It started with completely running out of breath after getting up the stairs, losing my appetite, which led to losing weight. Things started getting worse, and my mom took me to the doctors after I had a huge coughing fit which left my hands covered in blood. The doctors did an CT, and there was no denying it. They immediately started chemo and it completely broke me down. I stopped going to school after two months and started living at the hospital after four. That was six months ago. I've been sick for ten months now, I've been dying for ten months. I don't know when I'm going to die, I just know I'm dying. The chemo I've been getting has kept the cancer in my lungs so far, but in the past months it has spread further into my lungs. So I know it's just a matter of time before it spreads to my lymph nodes, and it eventually will take over the rest of my body.
I'm okay with dying, I'm still scared, but at peace. I feel like have had enough time to prepare myself for it, so have my family and my friends. I don't feel as bad about leaving them anymore, not like I felt in the beginning at least. After forcefully being taken out of school. I shut myself off. I didn't want any visitors, I didn't want to eat, I didn't leave my room and I refused to go to my chemo sessions. Thats until my mom came into my room, packed a bunch of my stuff into two large suitcases and told me she consulted with the hospital and they wanted me under their surveillance twenty-four-seven.
For a while the doctors, my mom and my brother were the only ones allowed in my hospital room. Until, on a Friday afternoon, a teary eyed Jungkook stood in my doorway. The bouquet of flowers shaking as his trembling hands held them. It took one glance and we both completely broke down. But he was there, and his arms around me made me feel safer in an instant. We cried for what felt like hours, and talked about every unsaid thing. After that Jungkook showed up every day after school, or late in the evening after dancing classes. He often shows me their new routine. Oh how I miss dancing. He would sometimes spend the night on the small couch in my hospital room, or sleep in my bed when we both needed cuddles. He started bringing his boyfriend Taehyung with him after a while, and I can't think of anyone more perfect for Jungkook than him.
Right now, it's 20:00 on a Wednesday and Jungkook didn't stop by yet, so I'm still waiting for him to barge in. And luckily for me, that wait didn't last long.
The door smacked open so loud I'm scared it broke the wall it landed on. ''Park Jimin!'' I looked up at the brown haired guy in the doorway, showing off his bright bunny smile.
'' Kook I told you to go easy on the door. You're either gonna break the wall, or push that door out of it's hinges.'' I say rolling my eyes and opening my arms for a hug.
'' I have to much power for my own good, I can't help it.'' He laughs answering my hug. '' How's my favorite egghead?'' He chuckles, rubbing the top of my head. A huff escapes my mouth as I grab my gray beanie off my nightstand, and pull it over my head. I hate being bald. Losing my hair was really hard for me. '' Alright. I'm just preparing myself for tomorrow.''
'' Another chemo?'' I nod as I see the sad look on his face. '' Do you want me to stay tonight?''
'' It's fine Kook, tomorrow is a school day. You can stop by after. You being here right now is already a huge help.''
Jungkook nods as he takes a seat on the end of the bed. '' Where's your mom by the way?''
'' She caught a cold so she can't visit me, didn't want to risk it. Jihyun came by this morning before school though. How's Tae doing?''
'' He's fine, got some big tests he needed to study for. Talking about tests..'' I look at Jungkook pulling a biology book out of his backpack. '' Wanna quiz me?''
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To give you a idea of how I imagine the hospital room kinda looks. Just imagine it filled with some personal stuff since he's been living there for a while. And also switch the position of the couch and the chair. There's also a bathroom connected to it on the left.
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