The Last Breath | YoonMin

22.

'' Watch your tubes!''

'' Mo-''

'' Wait a moment before you get up!''

'' It's fi-''

'' Here let me help yo-''

'' Mom it's fine I can do it myself!'' I yell while slapping her hand away. '' I just have to go to the bathroom, back off.'' I mumble before pushing myself up and walking to the bathroom.

Today is a bad day. Yesterday evening a fever set in, and I've been unable to sleep any longer than four hours because I felt to miserable to even fall asleep. The nurse gave me some painkillers for my headache, which are not doing their job, checked some of my vitals and just told me to take it really easy. I haven't talked to Yoongi yet, because I don't want him to worry over a fever.

As I stand behind the sink to wash my hands, my head keeps booming like it's being hit by a sledgehammer. And It's not until something tickles my lips, I look up to see streams of blood running out of my nose.

'' M-Mom!'' I yell as I pull out my tubes and try to stop the bleeding with my hand.

She rushes into the bathroom, I see her eyes widen when she sees me before she quickly hands me a towel, and I let myself sink to the floor when I start to feel lightheaded as I watch her step out off the bathroom and come back a few seconds later. '' I called the nurse, just keep this pressed against your nose.''

Within a minute a nurse comes walking into the bathroom, pushing my mom to the side and taking the now almost soaked towel away from me, stuffing my nose with gauze.

'' Jimin!?''

I look up at my mom and feel tears forming in my eyes. '' Send.. Him away.. He can't see me like this!'' I croak out. But he stands there before my mother even has the time to turn around.

I will never forget the pure horror in his eyes as he's being pushed out of the bathroom by my mom, who's also trying to calm down his screams.

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I ignored Yoongi that day. I didn't want to face him.

The doctor came and examined me. He told me there is a possibility the cancer has spread onto the lymph nodes in my neck, which can result in sinus problems and stuff, leading to sudden nosebleeds.
The doctor offered me a CT, but I refused. It's not like it has any use anymore.

Long story short. I'm one step closer to dying.

My mom has been with me all day, and I'm kind of getting sick of her being here. Don't get me wrong, I love my mom. But after what happened I just want to be alone.

So I told her, and she left. And now it's 2 o'clock at night and I've been staring at my wall for about 40 minutes.

I got a few texts from Yoongi but I never replied. I expected, maybe hoped, he would barge in my room by now. But he never did.

And for once in a long time, i got to feel how long and lonely nights actually are.

A few days ago, before i got a fever, my mom and my doctors talked about me going home. You know, to live the rest of my days. But after today they decided it's better for me to stay a little longer.

On the other hand. Jinae got released from the hospital and is back at home. I couldn't be happier for her, she is an absolute sweetheart and deserves nothing less.

Damn I'm gonna miss her.

I'm gonna miss everyone.

I step out of my door and into the hallway. It's quiet, and the lights are dimmed. It takes me a few seconds to realize the mass of black in the corner of my eye. I look at him. He's curled up in a chair, his head falling to the side and I can imagine how uncomfortable he must be.

As I sit down his head pops up and he looks at me with wide eyes.

"Ji-"

" This has to end." I interrupt him.

" We have to stop."

" I can't handle this anymore."

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Guess who's baaaaack!!
I hope someone is still reading this and is happy to see me...