Just another blog - candybeer

not even enough

Have you ever thought that what you do is not for you? that your actions are based in what others want and what others say. That you're just there to satisfy people, that you converted in that.

You don't want it, you don't feel it but you do it cause if you don't do it someone is gonna get mad or hurt. You don't want to say yes, but you care about the other people soy you say it, even not wanting it. Cause making others happy is what you have, since you can't make feel yourself happy. 

And you like the feeling of being accepted and loved, everyone does. But sometimes, the ones that don't recibe that much love, we do anything for it, even things that we don't want to do. And the worst part? that feeling of feeling loved lasts nothing, so you do it over and over again, but is never enough 

Everything is never enough, because you feel a little amount of love and you want it even more than the last time, but you can't have it all. Cause you feel nothing, you hate yourself. 

And sometime you think that you will never deserve all the love, so life is just giving you little amount of it, cause youre not enough to receive it. 

And sometimes is not even love, they're just being nice and you think anything, you think you like them and stuff, but they're just nice. Making others happy above my feelings and above what i really feel just to satisfy them cause i like the feeling of being less miserable.