Just another blog - candybeer

II

Why? why did you leave me alone?. 

Why you didn't care?

You said this was going to last forever.

But forever were days.

Always was never

And  promises were lies.

Forever has an end, because everything ends and nothing last forever 

i learned that when you left, i learned so much more without you, with your departure. 

I learned things like:

Love is not forever, love sometimes is a big lie with a desire behind. 

People lie when they say "i promise", because they leave and their words end up in the nowhere. Along with the feelings and the gazes.

Do you know that sometimes people want to hurt you?  With just the purpose of feeling better with themselves. But they hurt someone's feelings, someone's heart. 

Its sad, you know, cause they cant return back to being who they were, because now that person has trust issues, because of you.

It's so awful not being able to remember how did you feel before you were fucked up.

When i talk to my friends and they tell me about their feelings, about how broken they are, they tell me that love is crap and is the most toxic feeling. 

But the reality is that people made love toxic

People made love scary and ghastly. 

That's a gift that we all have, we mess up with everything we see or we touch.

So the thing is, enjoy, there's no necessity to hurt people and made them scared of loving, we have to enjoy because is the only life that we have and, why be sad? why be broken? when u can be happy for being alive and being able to move on. Because we all can move on. We all can omit people who hurt us and move on.

well that's ironic because i cant follow my own advices, i'm so messed up but i wanna help people to not end up like me. 

Breathe and go there, it's not the end of the world... yet.

You're not alone, you got you. And it may sound like a fail but, if you learn to love yourself it would be so easy, everything will. 

Or that's what they say, i never did it so  >>> can't relate. 

I don't even know if what i said makes sense but once more, thank u for reading me, i hope it helps you... 

x

Your sincerely, Camila