Just another blog - candybeer

idk

so this is improvised or impromptu, however, i just wanted to write what i'm feeling right now without the necessity to have an order to write so don't expect anything with sense lol.

idk tomorrow i start school again, after three months of being alone and in my comfort zone, ill start school with around 600 people on the first moment i cross that door, awesome. 

Considering i have social phobia, and nobody cares, that's kind of bad for my mental health but haha we don't care what happens to her because she's dumb and young so she doesn't know anything about life.

They say education it's my obligation, alright but going on there it's hell, i want to die and i feel breathless in that place full of fake and stupid people that the only thing that they did was mess up with me, hate those idiots. 

The thing is, i dont have friends because i cannot stand anyone man so funny so hilarious, now i don't know what the fuck. What should i do in recess, sit all alone? and look like a dumb ass bitch that is lonely and doesn't have friends? lmao i already do that. 

Anyways should i sit there and pretend im ok and put that bitchy face?? for TEN minutes like really? i wish i could listen to music, if i write i'm gonna look so stupid, but idk i want to die.

my mother just gets mad at me everytime i tell her anything about my anxiety, she thinks i'm overreacting or something, that this is a whim or i don't know but all she does is getting mad and yell at me just because im afraid of school. 

If i were in drugs or something well got you but i'm just worried about my mental health and hehee you're not helping, sorry but you gave me birth i didn't chose 

this is getting so lame and boring sorry, i'll go bye. 

break a leg.