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Chapter 27

Alexis's pov

I fed DJ some more ice cream and laughed at his attempts to go back to his original seat. The truth is, I could not really force Destiny to do something, he has to be a little open about it for me to do so. At the moment, I think he was in the kind of state where people would do anything their crush asks them to.

A part of me felt awful for exploiting his feelings for me, while the other part of me is just so stressed out and is looking for just about anything to keep my mind away from the horrors of today. Am I a horrible person for force-feeding my best friend ice cream that he seriously consider as poison? Even though he was starting to enjoy the treat?

"What's going on up here?" Dj asked after a while, tapping lightly on my forehead.

I shook my head and looked away, smiling despite all my jumbled up thoughts. "Nothing."

"It's not nothing. Women can't sit down and not think about anything."

"Says who?" I said. That's like the most ridiculous thing I've heard in a while.

Destiny rolled his eyes dramatically at me. "It's okay, if you don't want to talk about it."

I sighed tiredly. "There's just so much going on. I just wish I can turn off my brain sometimes."

Dj nodded silently in understanding. His eyes searched my face for a while. He looked away after a while as if he wanted to say something, but wasn't quite sure if he should. It was the doubtful look he had right before he kissed me earlier.  My heart started racing and I was getting nervous all over again.

He hesitantly moved closer to me, tucked a stray hair behind my ears as he bit back a smile and looked away. I was tempted to ask him what, but I figured he would tell me eventually so I waited.

He met my eyes again before he spoke his mind. It was a question. "Did I mess up earlier?"

Was he talking about the kiss? But of course, what else would he be referring to? I started blushing uncontrollably against my will again. It was my turn to look away.

"Umm..." I sighed, not sure what to say. He was so close I felt like I was drowning in his presence. I loved it. I mean if this was what drowning felt like, I'd definitely want to do it more often. Because this was Destiny, the comfort spot I sought after every time I feel down. The one that makes me happy in every possible situation.

Destiny snapped his fingers to get back my attention. "Back to earth beautiful." He said.

I bit my lips to stop my stupid grin. "I don't think you messed up. I... I actually liked it." I replied finally.

The sigh of relief that came from my best friend was enough to lift my mood some more. I felt lighter and also insanely flustered by the look in DJ's eyes.

"Can I kiss you again?" He asked softly, looking into my eyes.

I had to say it quickly before I changed my mind and make probably the worst decisions ever. "I'm sorry Destiny, but I.... We can't right now."

He blinked a little, then sighed and nodded. "It's okay. I think I get it. I'm just your best friend."

His words sort of broke my heart a bit and I tried to explain myself. "It's not that DJ, I loved our first kiss. You're a really great guy. I just have too much to fix right now and I'm just this confused little girl..."

He just nodded, picked up our ice cream spoon and smiled forcefully at me. "Shall we finish this?"

I wasn't quite sure if I wanted to but I nodded anyway. We finished the ice cream together, Destiny feeding both of us and left as soon as we were done. I was the one who wanted to go home. Actually I was suddenly desperate to be away from DJ for a while. This was partly because I had no idea how to deal with the situation. My body wanted sex and seems to think Destiny is the perfect person because he is so readily available, but my heart and conscience won't entertain the idea because of the simple fact that I don't think I should.