Popularity | Taejin ✔︎

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Taehyungs P.O.V

Why aren't you answering???

Hey, you little fuck what's going on?

Are you getting better? Eating at all?

One after another message I send to Jin. He isn't even reading them. I slam the the letters on my keyboard angry at everything. He isn't doing anything but sitting on his ass right now. He has time to answer me so why isn't he? Why would I care anyway? He did pass out on my property and almost cost me my life when my mom was nagging my ear off about who he was. I couldn't explain anything to her because I can barely explain it to myself. I'm just glad she didn't take my phone from me when I was on the phone with the paramedics. I have noticed Jin before his confession to me which came to be a big surprise to me. The whole time I thought he was just a stalker and nothing more but to find out he liked me really shocked me. I didn't take his confession seriously and walked away from him hoping he would forget about me. And when he forgot about me and moved on to stupid egghead something about it pissed me off. I couldn't put my tongue on it but when I saw them two together at that restaurant I felt the urge to punch Nam-joon in the face right then and there. I don't like Nam-joon. Something about him really ticks me off and I don't know what it is about him that makes me feel that way.

Jin on the other hand, I don't know what he sees in him. I have many girls confessing their liking to me but I know none of them are serious so I wipe them off. They only like me because I'm popular and they want to know how it feels to date someone in the publics eye. With Jin I didn't think he was serious but then again he was the first boy to ever tell me he likes me. The night he confessed to me I couldn't sleep. I found his socials and he barely posts but I knew he wasn't popular. I don't get what people see in me when they say they like me. There really isn't anything to like about me. I shouldn't have gone as far as kissing him and...well, taking his phone and putting my phone number in it. It was the only way I could talk to him because I basically rejected him. I don't get why I'm going this far to get a reaction out of him. I haven't done this with any of the girls who have told me they liked me. I really have no explanation. At karaoke I told him I didn't like him which was a big mistake. He says he cares what people say about me but I really could care less what anyone says about me.

He thinks I didn't know the consequences when I kissed him out on the soccer field. He doesn't know that I knew people would talk about it. And they have but it's quiet. I haven't posted about so right now it's only talk. They don't believe witnesses unless there is proof. I never asked to be popular it just happened. I wish he knew I don't care what people think and I'll do whatever I want.

You better answer me or else..!

I grit my teeth after the final last message for the day. He won't answer if I threaten him. That night, two nights ago still plays in my head. Where did he get that information that me and Hae-Win are dating? Idiot should have asked me first if it was true or not. Stupid little pretty boy. I haven't been to school since you won't be there. No need to go if I don't see your face and hear your voice getting after me for everything I do. Unlike the teachers he has a better affect on me surprisingly. Hae-win is a girl I find really annoying and she's only here because of my mom. Hae-win wouldn't leave me alone and my mom practically forced me to stick with her but we are not dating. I wouldn't date her or anyone for that matter. I haven't dated anyone since middle school and that was for only six months. She had moved away and I came to the conclusion we weren't together anymore.

Jin, you confess to me and go on with life acting like you're hard to get when you damn for sure know it. How dare he confess then go off to another guy. And that stupid egghead still left him alone even after the rumors. Maybe I should make more but I need a new picture. I didn't know what to do when Jin said those words 'Will you go out with me?' Those could have came from anyone. Literally anyone and my answer would always be the same. Actually I would have no answer so I'd just fall silent because I would be confessed to every single day in the beginning of secondary school. After Jin confessed to me many other girls had confessed right after but non of them felt like the confession Jin had for me. Jin's was like he has held it in him for a long time. The girls words would come out easy but for Jin it was like I was going to throw a sword back at him if he didn't say it.