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Jin's P.O.V

Three more weeks till the wedding. I'm anxious and worried that this marriage is fake and that my brothers fiance is just using him as a rebound. She has been dumped as a fiance before meeting my brother so that might tell you a lot. I remember when my brother introduced her to me and my om while he was a graduate. I didn't have an opinion on her at that time because I knew nothing about her. Until my brother would come to my room crying and rambling about what she did to him. It was stupid little arguments I didn't know adults could fight over. But if it was a stupid topic they would argue about it. But my brother is in love with her and so what I say can't change his mind. He knows I wish he would stay my brother forever and not leave me but his heart is telling him something else. I don't know anything about love but I can sense this is fake love. I haven't had a one on one talk with my brothers fiance because I don't think I'll get along with her. My brother and her are the opposite of each other, she's loud and a mess while my brother is quiet and organized. I thought since they only fought all the time that he wouldn't ask her to marry him but when the news came out we were all stunned.

For some reason I had to tag along with my mother and her daughter in law to pick out a dress. My mom is a tight money spender yet Mi-Hae is rich, mom insisted we buy the dress. I am not one to be a stylist but everything in this shop is something I wouldn't want to see any bride wearing. Couldn't we have picked somewhere nicer? My brother isn't excited as he was for the wedding till now because our dad has told him he couldn't make it due to work. That broke Seok-joong to pieces and left Mi-Hae to us. They giggle, Mi-Hae and my mom. Mi-Hae twirls in the dresses costing a fortune and calling my mom an aunt. I hope she doesn't come over here and start hugging me and telling me how much she is going to love to be my older sister. They stare at the dress together in the mirror placed in front of them. Hopefully they see my awkward smile and let me leave. That makes me uncomfortable though, her calling my mom auntie. I don't get why my mom decided for me to come along when I could be doing me own thing.

I roll my eyes every other sentence Mi-Hae says and how my mom has to go along with it. My mom is more excited about this wedding than anyone else. Her first son is getting married so why shouldn't she be excited? They pick out veils and non of them fit their tastes so they talk about getting one handmade, personally by a cheap maker. Shows me how picky women can be. I'm sure I've had a bad influence when it comes to women. I hate weddings and the preparations' for it because everything is so expensive and there is too much going on. In movies and reality TV shows there is always drama in the family with some sibling not liking the fiance and I feel like I myself am in a reality TV show. I don't know maybe when the priest tells me if there are any objections I'll get up and start throwing food at Mi-hae then run away to never be seen again. My phone vibrates in my pocket. I dig in my jean pocket to find it. Nam-joon sent me a text. I open it.

Where are you?

Why is he messaging me after I rejected him? I thought it was going to be awkward to the point he wouldn't really text me anymore. What could he possibly want with me now? This is my fault because I did get myself into this mess but trying to get myself out of it is harder than I thought. Why do I have to be this way? I stuff my phone away thinking if I ignore him he'll stop messaging me. To be honest, I'd rather it be Tae-hyung messaging me because I'm waiting for him to freak out. My phone buzzes again. I glare at my hands. Peeking to see who it is. Nam-joon again.

We haven't talked in a while.

Shut up! I don't answer and tuck my phone back into my pocket. I feel it vibrate once more. And again. Then again. The third time. Before another could come through I go to angrily answer Nam-joon but to realize the person who was now non stop messaging me was Tae-hyung. I gulp.

The texts reading:

Happy I stopped the study sessions??

You should be happy I'm passing

I can just hear him arguing at his phone when I'm not answering him. I smile and go to answer. But wait, what do I say after a couple days of not talking? I know I shouldn't answer till he comes to conclusion on how he feels. I know and I'm not dumb I know he likes me. It's not hard to tell. He's gotta know the stuff that went down between me and Jung-kook too. No, I can't. What about Jung-kook? He'll get beat up again. I didn't really think this far about what would happen to Jung-kook but in the long run he will deserve it one day. Stop it, Jin. I'm still mad at Tae-hyung for saying he doesn't like me but clearly caring about me. What a dick move. Then again I miss him and then again I did get back at him without him realizing it. Does he really hang out with Jung-kook that much like people say? They are best friends and I hear a lot about what they do together but they all could be made up like every other rumor. My mom and Mi-Hae giggling up a storm I build up the courage to reply.

Looking over my message a hundred times before I send it I finally click the green arrow to fully send. My reply:

I want two things: 1. An apology. 2. Banana milk.

I sound like a manwhore! Stupid! An apology? He could be confused on what I need an apology for when I literally kicked him out of my hospital room. Banana juice only because I didn't get to finish mine the last time I was in his house. I'm giving him too many chances now and I don't know why I won't stop when I already know what the outcome is going to be. I can't delete the message because he can see it any other way. Curse me and my family now instead! I stare at my phone screen to see the chat bubble with three dots come up on his side. Soon after I have him message me back. His words:

I have enough banana juice here if you want to come over and have some

Wow. Bold. And if I get hurt again, if he starts flirting again and if that girl shows up again. What will I do? Run away? Run away from my problems like I always do. I don't know what I could possible do if I ever encountered Hae-win for the first time. I guess now we play along with what Tae-hyung is doing to see how long it will take for him to crack open. I'm petty and can never stick up for myself and I'd for sure lose at any fight wether it be man or woman. I should start working out maybe but when will I find time to do that. It's getting cold so the only place I can work out is at home or school. It's getting cold...snow will soon start to fall and we will all see our hot breath in the air. I want to see the first snow fall with Tae-hyung. If that is even possible.