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twenty-six

Jin's P.O.V

I slam the front door to my house shut. I mentally scream inside and all I want to do is cry on the floor and yell my lungs out till I have no voice left. Dragging myself to my room the first thing I grab is my phone and set it up to the charger. "Jin, are you home?" My mother calls for me in her room. I don't budge. She comes into my room right then and there.

"I'm surprised you came home. I thought you were going to stay out again." She tells me with anger in her voice like this morning.

Why does she think that now? Just cause I stayed out for one night doesn't mean I'll do it again. She doesn't have to act as if she didn't yell at me this morning either. I won't be doing that for a long time. staying out, never, never again with Taehyung. His hand fills that empty space in mine, his voice cures the pain in my heart. But we live in two different worlds it is impossible to be together. Why was he acting so weird when he was walking me home? Taehyung kept looking everywhere like he was being followed, I didn't see anything that seemed out of place. Then again I am too blind to save my life. I was blind enough to fall for Taehyung. "Are you ready for your brothers wedding soon?" My mom comes to my side and I move away from her.

"I don't care. You always talk about him like he is the best thing in the world. I could care less if he is getting married to a woman we don't like, more importantly he doesn't like." I spit.

"Shut up. You don't mean that. You are just jealous he found someone unlike you." My mom tries to smile it off.

"I'm not jealous. I'm not jealous, I'm mad. Leave me alone." I demand.

The tension in the air changes from happy to confused then to anger. From me. I radiate with anger and only anger. That stupid promise he made. It will never happen, Hae-Win will always have eyes on him and he can't do anything about it. Taehyung will soon have to marry her in the future with no complaint. While I will be heart broken all over again. Heart broken is all I know now. "I can't leave you alone, after what you said, no." My mom speaks up.

I scuff. "Just get out of my room. Now." I say.

My mom slowly backs up a bit taken back then rolls her eyes. She leaves closing my bedroom door and I lay down on my bed. Closing my eyes I imagine the hotel bed. Soft and comfy. The heat between Taehyung and I felt right. Nothing was weird or off about it all. On top of Taehyung. Kissing Taehyung. Taehyung. Everything is stumbling apart, why? I didn't ask for this. I didn't ask to fall in love. Last night was too good to be true and I know it. My phone dings.

Aggravated already I open my eyes and quickly go to my phone but to see something I never knew I would contact me again. A message from Namjoon. About an hour ago.

'How are you? I stuck around and heard a bit of it. Sorry for eavesdropping... '

Not taking the phone from the charger I open my phone to message back.

'It went better than I thought. Please don't worry about me'

There he is not even a minute later messaging back.

'You're crazy if you think I'm not going to care about you. If you need someone to talk to I'm right here.'

I smile slightly. I don't deserve Namjoon that is for sure, someone so nice that I had hurt, someone who had feelings for me. He knows exactly how I feel when it comes to Taehyung. I want to talk to Namjoon about it, but I'm scared it will just break him down more. I got nothing to lose.

'It went horrible... He was weird on the walk home' I message back.

'Weird? How? What was he doing, being a pervert?'

I laugh. 'No, he kept looking around like someone was following us.'

'He is popular. Maybe he was scared someone from school could see you guys'

I frown and slump. Namjoon might be right. Maybe that was why he was acting weird. Stupid.

'You might be right, sadly. This is bad, I should just end it with him'

'That is what you said in the classroom yet you still ended up in his arms'

I bite my bottom lip. There is no way I can end it. End it. Not my thing I guess. Not messaging back I go to call one of my friends from the sunshine group. Jimin. He answers right away. "Jin?" He says through the phone.

Tears sting my eyes I haven't heard his voice in so long. I want a laugh but that's not the only reason why I am calling him. "Jimin," I squeak.

"Ah, Jin. Why did you call? I mean it's great you did because I was about to. You slept all day I was worried!" Jimin laughs. There goes my smile once again that will soon fall.

"You don't have to go to my brothers wedding anymore." I tell him.

"What? Why?" Jimin almost yells.

"I'm not going. Sorry if you had everything planned, but I won't be going to the wedding. I have other plans."

"Like what?" Jimin asks.

"I don't know yet but would you mind being a part of it?"