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forty-one

Jin's P.O.V

Did Taehyung really do all of that? Namjoon was only trying to be nice. Of course Taehyung wouldn't like someone being kind to him, but that's what I like about him. But I thought those two were on good terms, I guess not. Sometimes when I look at Taehyung I have this twisting feeling in the bottom of my stomach. What is that? It feels weird and I'm on cloud nine, a feeling I had yesterday afternoon with Taehyung when he saw my bare chest. With my bruises.

Those boys that had beaten me up, Taehyung could have been behind that too. Hae-Win really likes Taehyung so why wouldn't he follow her orders? He'll do anything for popularity. I've never actually seen them together other than that one time where I saw them two kiss. Never seen them talk when that morning he didn't want to set an eye on her. Do they actually get along? I'm sure they have done it. Had sex I mean.

I sulk. They probably have, no probably but definitely. Taehyung couldn't make love to a guy he doesn't know how to...neither do I. Yesterday I just wanted to see how it would go but at the same time I wanted it. Jealousy took over me as well and I can't believe I let it get like that. His touch and attention just like he gave his other girlfriends. All of it. He could lead the way, I wanted him to lead the way. Lead me in the right direction into something so wondrous.

There goes that twisting feeling in the pit of my stomach again. Just thinking about him makes me feel this way, wow. I want his hands on me. His hand in my hair. I gulp. That soft touch he did this morning with my hair sent me shivers. That was great. How dare I think like this right now?! I should be worrying about Namjoon and hating Taehyung. And what he did to Namjoon couldn't be worse from what he did to Jungkook. He beat him up till he couldn't see and I'm afraid if there is a next time Taehyung won't stop. What do I do now? "Jin?"

I blink seeing my surroundings of an early winter scene. Trees have no leaves on them and the wind and air is cold. My eyes move over to Namjoon, he stops walking causing me to stop as well. "Hm?" I reply gazing at his cheek that's beginning to bruise up.

"Something wrong? Look, you don't have to walk with me you can go ho"-

"I'm fine. Just thinking is all. Let's keep walking, your place isn't far is it?" I say looking ahead.

I begin to head forward but my arm is grabbed, tightly. I jump to notice the arm belonged to Namjoon of course it did but it scared me. Ever since I was beaten up I don't trust that many people anymore. I'm always deep in my anxiety that anyone could beat me up. My expression changes from scared to confused instantly. "What?" I crack a smile being nervous and awkward. He didn't want me to walk him home but I insisted because part of me didn't want to see Taehyung. The principle didn't do anything but let them off with a warning since what Taehyung did wasn't as big as other things that have happened.

I try taking my arm away but he has a tight grip on me. "Namjoon," I can't help but smile more being embarrassed. "Let go." I demand with a slight scare in my voice.

"I don't want to," Namjoon starts, "I can't. You're just...the best." Namjoon tells me.

I roll my eyes and laugh. "Save the melodrama for some other time, okay?" I try again from yanking my arm away to continue strolling on but it doesn't work. What's going on? Before I can get anymore words out or to even scream Namjoon is quick on what he does.

Next thing I know Namjoon is grabbing my face with his hands forcing himself on me. His lips almost meet mine, I get grossed out. "N-Namjoon!" I turn my face away from him pushing away with my free hand.

"But Jin." I'm pushed against the railing from the sidewalk to the lake behind me. I could easily escape but that lake goes on for miles no way can I get away. The water isn't completely frozen yet. Twice my arm is grabbed, my hand, to be placed on Namjoons chest. Now I'm really scared and I hope Namjoon sees it. But he doesn't. "Do you feel that?" He is close again.

I feel his heart on my hand. Beating, fast. My breath hitches when I sense his lips close to my neck. What do I do? What do I do?! "Why don't you want me? Instead," he meets my eyes. "Instead you pick that- idiot."

I gulp, my mouth is dry and I have nothing to say to him. Namjoon, what have you become? Taehyung, he isn't an idiot! "He doesn't know anything," Namjoon sighs. His hot breath warming my skin from the cold weather. Leaves fall beside us. "Immature, a prick, he is rude even to you."

"Just stop!" With all my force, all my muscles I push Namjoon off. It's painful after since I haven't fully recovered. "Just stop it! Stop it!" I cover my eyes with my hands and almost cry. "You have no clue, no clue- how- how Taehyung- he." I gasp for air through my tears. I don't understand how it came to this.

"You'll never change your mind." Namjoon cuts my cries. I follow up on him, he stands there looking down at his feet. "Even if I lie to you your stupid heart won't change." He laughs with frustration.

Lie? He...lied to me? What did he lie to me about? Everyone is lying to me now and I can't help to not trust people even more. "What," I swallow. "What do you mean, lie?"

"I lied to you, okay?" Namjoon shrugs and backs up. "I lied about Taehyung, about the reason he punched me. But you know it's fine," His tears roll down. But he isn't the victim here. "I'll just take my leave." There is fire in his eyes. He sucks in a sharp breath.

"Namjoon, I"-

"I will still get those that hurt you though. I'll just...see you around." With that he turns and runs off.

What now? Taehyung, I need Taehyung. Where is he? My tears run dry, I grab my phone and call Hoseok. After four rings he picks up. "Hello?"

"I thought you'd ignore me." I respond.

"Jin, you are still my friend. What is it that you need?" Hoseok questions.

"I just need someone right now. You and Jimin. The Sunshine group back again." I laugh tearing up again.

"Come over. I'll call Jimin, don't worry, Jin. Tell me everything." Hoseok's voice soothes me as I begin to hurdle down the sidewalk telling him everything that happened.