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thirty-six

Taehyungs P.O.V

I stop my car and before I can talk to Jin, he raises his shirt over his nose as he exits my car. I watch him fondly and confused. What is he doing? I get out and follow him to my front door. "Yah, what are you doing?" I ask him as he turns his head to me. Jin gives me a questionable expression like I should know why.

"So nobody from school knows its me entering your home." He tells me and opens the door. "You shouldn't keep your house unlocked...anyone can come in."

I don't get why that matters but okay. I guess he's more concerned about what people think of me than of what people think of him. To be honest I'm getting sick of school and what people think. Behind him I walk in and close my front door letting the warm room move over my body. Jin doesn't know where to go from there, he stands there in the entryway. Being here times before you would think he'd know where to go. "Your mom." He said.

"Don't worry, my mom is at work till she feels like she wants to go home. You want something to eat?" I offer taking off my shoes and going to my kitchen.

"Yes, please. I've been starving since this morning." Jin laughs but suddenly stops grabbing his side. I grimace at his reaction wanting to hold him but since he's hungry holding will come later.

I love hearing his laugh its so full of life and so unique. Unique yes because there's no other laugh like Jin's. I hear him laugh with Hoseok and Jimin in school and outside of school. Jin brings himself with me to the kitchen watching my closely. "What would you like?" I open my fridge to see barely a thing. I close it and hum to myself.

"I will just have a glass of water." He tells me.

I nod and proceed on getting him what he wants. He is hungry though but wants water? I should order take out for him. I stop halfway when I have the cup underneath the faucet seeing it fill up. "Can I see your ribs?" I cringe at my question.

I look at Jin and he is taken back by my sudden words. He nods and lifts his shirt as I set his cup in front of him. There they are, bruises that seem painful as hell. This happened all because of me, I can't leave Jin because I have known Hae-Win would do something. The thing is I thought she'd do something to me and no one else. How does she know Jin? She's never once lied her eyes on him or ever heard his name. I trace my fingers lightly over the bruises seeing the discoloration. Purple, light blue then yellow, they must be healing quickly. Jin lowers his shirt embarrassed and I see the tips of his ears have gone red. "I'm sorry."

"Well, stop being sorry, okay?" He complains but then wipes the attitude away. I nod and shyly lean against my counter. "Where is your mom?"

"I don't know." I tell him honestly. She could be at work, she could be out getting drunk, she could be out spending money or sleeping with other men. She wasn't always like that when I was growing up. My dad and her were always close and never went anywhere without each other. When my dad had to do business overseas that's when my mom couldn't trust him anymore. And he didn't trust her either. The countless phone calls my dad made to me complaining about her god old to the point I smashed my phone. Now I want nothing to do with him if I'm going to be a therapist to him and not a son.

Jin then leaves my side turning away from the kitchen going somewhere else. His water...food. "I'm tired. Where is your room?" He calls from the hallway.

"On your right last door!" I shout so he's able to hear me.

I hear Jin open my bedroom door, slowly and I hear him tread himself inside. "I was expecting it to be dirty." He adds. I gap at his words. I clean my room all the time because I don't like walking on stuff. I need things organized to I know where I put my things. People at school think I'm a mess just because my desk is stuffed with papers but I'm not a slob.

Making my way to my room Jin is there on my bed in the dark. "Hey! Get off!" I protest.

"Then where am I going to sleep? You wouldn't let me sleep on the floor would you?" He lays on his stomach peering up at me with puppy eyes. Halfway asleep now he smiles warmly. He just got out of the hospital he shouldn't be acting like this. Flirting.

"The couch. It'll be the floor if you don't get off my bed." I say harshly. I don't like anyone on my bed no matter the person. It's me being rude yes but it's what makes me feel comfortable. Jin fits right on my bed and I don't mind for him to sleep there but once his smell is left behind I wouldn't know what to do. I wouldn't even let Hae-Win look at my bed she'd sit on the floor.. He loves my bed I see that now. But-

"Please. Just lay with me for tonight and only tonight. I haven't seen you in so long." Jin tugs at my heart. Don't do that! I press my lips together scanning his body.

My heart quickens and my cheeks feel hot. Am I blushing? No, I can't be. I've already cried in front of him I can't blush in front of him now. Giving up I crawl on my bed next to Jin as he lays on the outside and I am on the inside against the wall. He smiles in satisfaction. Damn him. "Taehyung," he starts. "You've had girlfriends before, right?" He asks.

No. "Yes, why?" What could his reaction be? I've never dated anyone seriously that is. No one worth the time and effort. At least that's not what I gave off to the girls I was dating before. They all still love me even if I broke their heart.

"Were any of them your first?"

My eyes widen. Yes. "No. I don't see there is a need to." I lie. I don't want to hurt Jin. Not anymore. But honesty is the key thing in a relationship. I admit I've had my first with a girl but it was so long ago I forgot and it was my only time. After that I wasn't the one to sleep around. I didn't like it. She left it alone and didn't tell anyone but people assumed at school that we slept together.

"Non of them, huh?" He only turns his head to get a good look of me.

Before I can answer Jins hand is placed on the back of my head and our lips crash together. He doesn't try to push away or suddenly smack me but he keeps going. Wrapping his legs around mine and kissing me hungrily. I didn't think Jin would be like this. He's doing something I thought I had to do.

But wait. Suddenly Jin fumbles with my pants and I can't help but freak out. What does he think he's doing?! This isn't happening! Is he for real! I can't do this. "J-Jin, what are you doing?" I break apart the kiss to try and talk with him.

"What does it look like?" He kisses my lips once again and he even messes around with his jeans.

Not moving he deepened the kiss. Maybe this should happen but I've never had sex with a man before. I don't know what it takes but I guess I have to learn on my own. I groan under his touch. I want to touch him, all of him, to see every inch. But, I can't. But Jin is so good like he's been practicing in his head every action he does. Tastes sweet. Jin is on top, his bare hands searching underneath my shirt. Our lips parting he takes his shirt off and I see all the bruises, I begin to feel sad inside and I can't say or do anything.

Slightly toned above me I touch him everywhere. I move my fingers over his bruised ribs that's when I'm snapped out of it. "Jin, we- Jin, we can't."

"Why not? It's what we want." Jin says in a dark tone.

I can see what he's doing. He feels pressured into doing this because he wants to be just like that other girl. He's jealous so he wants to sleep with me. But he shouldn't be jealous and he shouldn't feel pressured into sleeping with me. Right now I don't feel ready because there's so much I have to do before I can really get serious with Jin. That's find myself a bit more and work on myself. I have to realize other people's feelings.

"Not yet. Not until it's right." Jin does not like this. With a sigh Jin lands next to me and buckled up his pants not caring to put his shirt back on. I do the same and zip my jeans back up. Grabbing Jins shirt I place it on his chest.

"We can talk instead." Jin suggests staring at the dark ceiling.

That would be best for now.

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