the broken hearted girl

Chapter eighteen- the joy of school.

~alysha~

I couldn't sleep.

I have sleeping issues, but that wasnt the reason why i couldn't sleep,not this time it wasn't.

It was this place.

Its weird.

It smells weird

It looks weird.

Its so noisy outside my window too, my old house was nice, cosy and quiet thats why i liked it.

Can't wait to get back to that house.

The less i think about it the quicker my time here will go?

I felt so unsafe.

I was living with total strangers, i don't know what they're capable of?

They could be murderers or pedophiles, they're defiantly not normal..

Its worse than my dad to be honest, i couldn't live with him either though, that was a nightmare in my life too.

Fuck this.

Can't be asked for this place, i still want to leave.

I'd rather stay with Maisie to be honest😂.

Nah i hate this though.

Its 2:31 am, and i'm still laid here.. what?

I start school in six hours, i have to get up in four. is there much point in me sleeping?

If i go to sleep i won't wake back up untime, so there is no point.

I'm also worried about that psycho shane he could come in this room and stuff, so i have to keep the door locked.

This is bad.. Theres only so much i can take.

**

I didnt get one blink of sleep last night, and i'm not surprised.

I'm not used to this room.

I'm not used to this new environment.

I miss my posters on my walls; teen wolf posters, its just not the same.

It sucks💯.

Don't know how i'm getting to school.

Walk?

Yeah i like walking its good exercise, it helps you loose weight. exercise keeps you healthy and fit.

I woke up really early before everyone else, i was also sneaking about because i didn't want to wake anyone..

No lunch, no cash.

Cool..

Don't care to be honest.

I can go all day without food, its fine.

I got ready, and tried to make an effort to look okay, but i dont think i succeeded?

Oh well, i don't care anymore to be honest.

Who do i have to impress?

Fucking no one.

No one wants me.

They never have, and they never will, and i don't blame them.

**

I finally left the house, i felt so much better now that i was out of that place.

I knew where i was, i knew my way to school.

It should only take me about half an hour.

The journey to school was really nice and quiet i walked and thought about stuff.

Like how my life is a huge fuck up.

This kind of thoughts, i just can't stop thinking like this, i hate it. i hate it. i hate it.

Fuck sake.

I wish i was someone else who wasn't alysha smith.

That name?

To me, it sounds fucking awful.

I don't mind alysha, because my mum chose that, its the other part what my dad gave me, or should i say i inherited from my dad.

That twat.

Glad i didnt attend his funeral, i wonder what people thought about that?

Why should i of attended it?

To be honest i'm glad he's gone except from the fact that i now am being fostered for 6 weeks ugh.

One day was eventful and long enough, but 6 fucking weeks- 42 days oh my i can't be here for that long, i can't and i won't.

**

It took longer than half an hour to get to school, it took an hour.

I guess i was walking to slow.

I walked up to the school gate, Maisie's there.. waiting for me?

Ugh.

Can't be asked for that chick.

"Hey alysha, how's life?" she asked me,

"Okay Maisie, i'm going to be honest. I don't want a hundred questions from you today. In fact don't ask me any questions at all, then my life will be fine." i told her.

"But i want to know what's been going on in your life?" she whined.

Why does she even care.

"Maisie stop." i growled,

"Fine." she agreed.

This girl is bare annoying, not even lying.

Nathan and the rest of our friend group were coming over towards me as well, great.

I don't want all the attention and questions.

And guess what? I have a whole day of this, people making a fuss of me when i hate it.

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A/N

This was like a filler chapter on how Alysha's first night was at her new home And how she felt about it, she doesnt like attention and shes going to get loads of it because she collapsed in lesson and has been fostered. everyone knows about it too..

I will try to write more about the actual story line in the next chapter... no promises though.

Theres about 11 chapters left 👍🙌

I updated sooner :) sorry its quite short and rubbish i just wrote it up on my ipod.

Its unedited, probably loads of mistakes soz.

Next update.. um soon?

Thanks for reading💕❤👌💯

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