the broken hearted girl

Chapter twenty- so im living with a bunch of tribal freaks?

~alysha~

what even is this?

i can't stay here, but i doubt that they would relocate me, but really weird stuff happens here, stuff i don't understand.. and lets just say i'm not exactly dumb.

school in three hours, no point sleeping.. going to be absolutely wrecked today, i won't be able to focus or do anything.

It's just life, my life.

Nothing changes, my life it's like a broken circuit filled with problems,issues etc which repeats itself daily, and now i'm living with complete utter freaks. I guess i have to pretend that i don't know anything? Pretending is my talent, my biggest talent, to be honest i could probably make a living out of it.

Matt, um he stayed in my room on my bed - i slept (well i didn't actually sleep) on the floor, after a load of persuasion..

Matt, aw i barely know him. But he seems to be the only normal person round here, except from me.. But i'm not normal, so am i one to talk?

I don't understand, so should i judge?

Everyone judges me, so i judge them.

I only treat people how they treat me, so if someone treats me awfully, i'll be a bitch to them, if someones nice to me, i'm nice to them simple.

**

Didn't get one bit of sleep last night, like usual then.

School, yeah i'll get up before everyone else to avoid making contact with them, the tribal freaks, and that Shane dude ew!

Im such a drama queen, i over react about everything.

I like being a drama queen though...

I got up before everyone, got ready and left for school.. I want to avoid everyone🙌.

Walking to school - i don't have a problem with doing it, it doesn't bother me one bit.

Still obsessed with my weight i've lost about a stone now.. Thats good, i'm pleased with that.

I haven't engaged with anyone today, i like the fact that i don't have to bother with anyone..

**

It took me half an hour to walk to school at my steady paste.. Not that long.

My second day back after all this shit has happened, the first day is always the worst so today won't be as bad...

The attention.

The bitching.

The swearing.

The staring.

I hate it.

Im so pathetic, to be honest i think i'll just spend today alone doing nothing... Maisie and Nathan they just irritate me, they suit they should get together.

But apparently nathan likes me? And when i made a move he called me a whore, yeah great one👌.

This life of mine, it just gets worse and worse like i just hate it ugh even thinking about my past makes me pissed off and upset.

I can't cry about something which has happened in the past, i can only cry about something what would happen in the present - right now.

Fuck going back to that weird house id rather be homeless and have nothing.

Might stay with Maisie😂. But i can't put up with her for a whole week, it'd just be too much.

Im still falling into this never ending pit and i hate it.

Why can't it just be normal?

I had all of this on my mind, whilst starting the school day, yep what a fret start!

**

School - it was shit. I couldn't focus, o couldn't learn i couldn't do anything o felt so dumb.

I am dumb, im never going to achieve the high standards expected of me..

I really need extra help.

I've got my counciling after school, fuck sake no!

I'm not talking about this to anyone,especially someone i dont know who just expects me to open up to them no, just no.

I'm not bothering, so i don't know why they've bothered to even fund this for me.

I'm walking "home", im so tempted to go to where i lived with my dad, where i'll be living in less than six weeks time, but they'll find me.

Matt though.

He's the only good thing about that place, but i don't know? i think when we both met it was a moment of weakness? We're just friends so..

Im such a fragile person, one person with their pathetic mess can make me break down into tears.

Its happened before, once i start crying, i can't stop.

I got up to the front door of this stupid house, it sucks💯 its making my life ten times worse than it already is, and thats pretty bad..

The weirdos.. their like a tribe i guess?

I'm going to work this out...

So im living with a bunch of tribal freaks, yep sounds about right for this kinda thing to happen in my life.

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A/N

Sorry bout the long wait i had writers block for this book, this was so hard to write and i feel like its rubbish anyway.. Unedited.

Tried to make this longer😬😁😙

Used to love writting this book💕❤👏 now its really hard to write idk.

This was filler chapter kinda about alyshas feelings thats why its so boring!

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Next update should be within the next fortnight, depending on how busy i am..

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