the broken hearted girl

chapter twenty three - run away.

~alysha~

Matt's face turned from an upset face, to a face which was full of anger and hatred.. Maybe i shouldn't of asked him about Leah?  Well i didn't know..

"Why would you even ask me this Alysha?! You've seen how funny i get on this subject!" He asked me... 

"Matt, i didn't-" I began,

"- No alysha save it, fucking save it! Ever since you've came to this fucking house all i''ve done is care about you, be there for you and be at your side, but never have you once bothered to do any of that for me!" He shouted.

"Well how can i?  You seem to be fine all the time, and i don't know much about you." i shrugged,

"Exactly. Every fucking thing is about you." He roared.

"Matt please don't." I sighed,

"matt please don't." he imitated me, "I fucking won't. Don't worry Alysha... i won't bother you anymore, in fact i won't be bothering again." He told me, before walking out of my room and slamming the door behind him.

I didn't mean for all of this to happen, he said i could ask him anything so i asked him something, and look where it's gotten me, i always mess everything up.

I felt the tears make there way down my face... I miss my mum. I haven't seen her for about three years now, and i've changed alot since then, but i wonder if she would be proud of me, proud of what i've become? I highly doubt it, i'm a huge fuck up. My whole life is shit, i wish i could be someone else, someone with a complete different life someone who has nice parents that actually care about them. Where as i'm an orphan, both my parents are dead. I have no other living relatives that i'm aware of, so thats just it.. i'm the last of this family.. maybe i should kill myself? Then there would be nobody left in this shitty family...

Everytime something good happens in my life, which isn't often... someone has to come around and ruin it, then it all comes crashing down.. piece by piece, and i watch it all crash down knowing that there's nothing i can do about it.

I begin to pack a bag with clothes, i don't have a lot, no all my stuff is at my actual home. I don't know what i'm doing, i don't know where i'm going. But i certainly know one thing, i'm not spending another moment here. I don't like absolutely anything about this place, and i can't live here for another month.  I want to just go home, why can't i? I'm seventeen okay, i can look after myself. It's  not like i'm an irresponsible kid, because i'm not.. then there's that shitty counciling, fuck sake.

Once i had finishing packing my bag, my room looked completely bare well, i wonder if Matt will notice that i'm gone? Nah he probably won't give a fuck just like everyone else.

I went downstairs, and straight out of the front door.. i slammed the front door behind me, i guess i'm just really pissed off and sad at the moment, like usual.

I stroll up the road, i don't know where i'm actually going... I don't have any family, i don't have many proper friends, they all do my head in, and honestly i'm doing better without them - less drama and stress.

I see the front door open of the house i had previously left.. I ran and hid round the corner hoping that i wouldn't be noticed, because other wise i would be in so much shit with child services, even though i'm not a child?

"She's not here. She's gone." I hear a voice shout, it wasn't Matt.. so i don't care. 

There's only one place i can go, the most obvious place they will look for me.. but i need to camp out somewhere just for the night.. so i'm going to go back to my old house, it has so many bad memories with my dad, but good ones with my mum.. 

No transport, just walking, i always walk so it doesn't really bother me.

I arrived outside my house, it's massive. It makes the other place i'm staying at look like a little hut litteraly. The house is dark, and it looks bad.. i think it needs work doing to it, but do i really want to stay here? My dad died here, and he would be a bad spirit, but so did my mum and she would be a good spirit.. it's not like i believe ghosts or anything.

The house is all bordered up, fuck sake.. no.

I'm going to have to try the back way, i climbed over the back gate.. if i can't get in the house i'll sleep in the garden i don't care. Actually no thats a bad idea the neighbours are bound to see me and would snitch on me.

I found a window which wasn't bordered up, and i smashed it, before climbing through it. The glass could cut me, it already has cut my hand, so i don't really care, but it would also mean another trip to the hospital.

I made my way in the house through the window, the house is pitch black and freezing... this is so creepy, i really dislike it. But what choice do i have?

I use my phone light, to find the lightswitch, to realise that there's no power great. Well i'll just sleep here in the kitchen, on the stone cold floor.. i'm not too bothered.

I don't know what i'm going to do, but i'm going to settle down for the night.

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A/N

This is a boring update, i'm sorry. I've decided that sunday is my update day so yeah :). Next chapter, i don't know what to write to be honest....... writters block -.-, but i'll think of something :/ and this is unedited.

anyway thanks for reading <3

thank for the 1.3k reads, i didn't even think i'd get one to  be honest...

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