fangirl | han jisung

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[ yeisha ]

ever since that night, the day at the park, the kiss, minho's confession..he always talks to me, be with me, takes care of me and gives me everything. like literally.

he takes me on multiple dates, talks to me everynight, brings me food and presents even if it's not really necessary. kisses me goodbye, greets me in the morning, bids me goodnight, hugs me tight, and loves me right.

and i would be lying if i say that i don't like it.

i like it, his efforts. i love it.

but what i hate is my part. the feeling of yearning for jisung to do those things for me and not minho.

and i know that it's not right, i don't wanna see minho and think of somebody else.

it guilts me.

and also hurts me.

i know that he's doing this for me, to help me forget jisung quicker but how can i forget him when he's the only thing i yearn for?

how can i forget him if i love him more than myself?

how can i forget him when he's the only thing that i want to have?

i like him, i love him.

and i would be lying if i say that i don't miss him.

everyday, i still hope that jisung will message me. that he's saying he's sorry, that he doesn't mean it, that he also likes me.

but that's too impossible.

too out of reach.

too foolish.

but i can't help it. i am still waiting, and it hurts me. it's hurting me.

but han jisung is the only pain i am willing to feel all over again.

a ding brought me back to reality, i sighed as a thought of han jisung messaging me comes in my mind. i lazily picked up my phone and my lips formed a straight line when i didn't see his username.

i expected that it's not him, yet why do i feel so disappointed?

triplecats
good afternoon!!

triplecats
practice ended early
today! have you
eaten yet?

han.yeisha
good afternoon!

han.yeisha
nope, not yet

han.yeisha
i just woke up
kskdksks

triplecats
great!

triplecats
i'll be over in 15!

han.yeisha
i haven't even bathe
yet! >:O

han.yeisha
i look like a mess rn!

triplecats
i've seen your
'just woke up' self
before, remember?

triplecats
it's fine

triplecats
you still look
beautiful, anyways : )

han.yeisha
oh shush

han.yeisha
don't flatter me too much

han.yeisha
i might take it seriously
someday

triplecats
it's true though

triplecats
you look beautiful
every single day

han.yeisha
whateverrr

triplecats
i bet you're blushing
right now

han.yeisha
sorry to disappoint you
but i ain't blushing

han.yeisha
gtg, gonna bathe

triplecats
i'm already on
my way

triplecats
see you! ❤

han.yeisha
keep safe!❤

i locked my phone and dropped it on my pillow before cupping my heating cheeks.

minho never fails to make me blush.

"ahh, why should i be waiting for him if i have someone waiting for me?" i sighed and stood up, walking towards the bathroom to take a bath.

"from today, i won't think of jisung. ever again."