Double Bender

Part 38

Okay, I thought. Now's your chance. Just go up to him and say that you forgive him...Shit! Why can't I do this? Get ahold of yourself. Just....ugh! I banged my head against the rock once and then stood up and walked over to Zuko and Aang. "Can I...Zuko... would it be alright if...." Spit it out! I thought sternly. "ZukocanItalktoyoualoneplease?!" I said quickly. Zuko looked at me like I was crazy and then said, "Uh...sure..." Aang walked away. "So what do you need to talk to me about?" Zuko asked. Oh God, here we go. I thought. "Okay," I said, with a sigh. "What I need to say is...now, this is very hard for me to say, who am I kidding no it isn't. I mean...it's easy to say it to someone else but not to you... Not that that's a bad thing or anything. I mean I could pretty much say this to anyone... That's not what I meant! Um, okay. What I meant is it's easy to say in general but it's hard to say to someone, especially you. Again, not that that's a bad thing... I really have been meaning to say this for a long time...and...and..." "Just say it." He said with a little chuckle. I couldn't hold it in any longer. "I'm so sorry!" I blurted. He looked at me, obviously confused. "I'm so sorry about how I've been acting the last few days. I've been horrible, I just can't stop yelling at you, even when I knew I should have stopped because I knew I was hurting you, but I just kept yelling. I shouldn't have...I'm sorry!" "Hold on. Slow down." Zuko said. "Why are you apologizing? I should be the one-" "I've been awful to you!" I said. "You apologized but I just had to go and be a bitch about and... I'm horrible!" "You are not." He said. "You weren't the one who left in Ba Sing Se." I sighed. "Yeah, but you said you were sorry. You practically begged for forgiveness and I..." I put my head in my hands. "I'm so sorry." I whispered. "You said that already." He said, trying (and failing) to make the situation less. I looked at him. "I can't say it enough." I said. "I've been horrible." He thought for a moment and said, "Tell you what," he said. "I'll forgive you if you'll forgive me. Deal?" I smiled. "Deal." He smiled again. We stood there for a while, not sure what else to do. We didn't know whether we wanted to be...us again. We both had been through enough in the last few weeks and with the comet coming so soon, we didn't know whether this would be good for us or not. Neither of us had a very good chance of making it out alive, and if we grew too attached to someone just to lose them again, it would take to much to stand back up again.

I looked back up at Zuko, smiled, and hugged him. He knew what I was thinking and I knew what he was thinking. "Maybe." Was all I said.

Okay, so Zutiana might not be back on yet, but hold your horses.

So how has your day been going so far?

Mine has been good, homecoming is next week and, when you go to an all girls school, everyone gets excited about it. I haven't gotten a dress yet but hopefully I'll get one this weekend.

Please comment, I've been feeling fairly lonely.

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~Maeve (# WAFFLE!)