3AM: Life or Death?

Chapter 16

Jimin POV

Sighing softly to myself, I ruffle my hair as I lightly as I wait for the soup to heat up. It's nearly there when I hear the door open, signifying that the rest of the boys are home. I don't bother going out and greeting them though, having mixed emotions over them at the moment due to the whole Jungkook thing. I'm still not sure that it's the best idea that we aren't telling him about Yoongi's condition and Namjoon and I went back and forth for a good half hour before I finally hung up on him, just five minutes before Jungkook came down the stairs.

Leaning my back against the counter beside the stove, I fold my arms over my chest as I sigh quietly. Biting my lip, I find the front of the house silent despite everyone having seemed to come inside. Though, I soon spot someone entering the kitchen, lifting my head up to find Namjoon coming inside. I give him a small glare, rolling my eyes before I return my gaze to the floor.

"Jimin, it really is for the best." Namjoon whispers softly, coming to lean against the island in front of where I'm stood. I shake my head at this, growing agitated all over again.

"He deserves to know, hyung. Just because we've all known each other equally long doesn't mean you're right in knowing what's best for him right now. What's best for Yoongi or Jungkook." I snap quietly, glaring at the floor beneath me as I wait for the soup to finish.

"Jimin, you have to stop this. I know you're frustrated right now and a little stressed like the rest of us, but you need to trust me on this one." Namjoon argues gently, seemingly trying to calm me down. I scoff though, my anger flaring at his sad excuse of an attempt.

"A little stressed, hyung? A little frustrated? You have no fucking clue how stressed and frustrated I am. And, you have no idea how stressed or frustrated Jungkook is either. For that matter, you've hardly paid any attention to him since you found out Yoongi tried to fucking commit. So you can get the hell out of here." I growl coldly, turning away from him as I spot the soup finally being ready.

Grabbing a bowl from the cabinet above the counter, I set it down and prepare to grab the soup for Jungkook.

"Damn it, Jimin, you've gotta stop this. I get it, you're tired and worn down, but you've really got to trust me on this one. It's not a good idea to be telling Jungkook." Namjoon tries once more, causing me to slam the bowl down on the counter and spin around with a dark glare in my eyes.

"I've got to stop?! You're the one not paying attention to the rest of us and what the fuck we need! I'm the only one making sure that Jungkook is taken care of! You have no idea how weak he's been! How much he's struggling himself! You've been too damn enraptured with your own damn self to be paying attention! I'm the only one trying my best to take care of our youngest member and recognizing just how much he's struggling! He's the damn one who's been through the most with what's happened with Yoongi! Yet you're acting like it's been you!" I yell, fed up with his shit of all of this.

He looks completely taken aback by my sudden outburst, eyes wide and jaw slack as he looks down at my shorter figure. I can't seem to cool off though, frustrated and stressed not even beginning to describe the way I'm feeling at the moment.

Don't get me wrong, I love helping Jungkook and getting to be the one to be there for him. It's who I am and in my nature to care for the others when they're not doing well. But the fact that I'm the only one paying attention to how much care and support he really needs right now is driving me up a wall.

"Jimin, Yoongi's awake. But he's not in a good condition right now. Between his depression and the drugs and that suicide attempt with the freezing water, he's a nightmare right now. It's why the four of us ended up leaving. He's really not in any condition to be having visitors, and certainly not Jungkook after having put himself through saving him." Namjoon informs me quietly, my heart sinking in my chest and shattering silently at this.

"I thought they said he wouldn't be waking up for a few days?" I whisper softly, not wanting to believe what I've just been told. Namjoon sighs though, running a hand through his hair.

"They thought so, but he woke up while we were all there. And he's not doing well either. He's not in any state to be having Jungkook there right now." Namjoon reiterates. Though, both our attentions are pulled away from each other as a certain voice speaks up from the kitchen entranceway.

"Yoongi hyung's awake?"