Love Me Like I Do

5.

Inevitable

Umagang umaga sa Lunes ay sobrang busy ko. Nope, there are no school activities nor class homeworks. I have to finish some presentations and close some deals. I have closed two deals this morning. And I should tell how exhausting it could be. I have to deal with their malicious intent but that's part of dealing with businessmen. You can't avoid the flirtitious conversation pero dapat hindi ka papatol kasi kapag pumatol ka ibang usapan na yan.

Pumasok ako ng 10am dahil may klase ako.

"So how will you deal with inevitable mistakes?" That question strikes me. Paano nga ba  kung inevitable nga diba? What's the best resort to that?

Some answered confidently that it could be immaterial kung inevitable.

"But what if that inevitable mistake is material, what will you do about it?"

"Sir, a material mistake whether  it is intentional or not, it is a mistake that needs a resolution and someone to blame, of course in that instance, the person who committed the mistake. Yes, we can forgive but we are in the business world so being it a material mistake, there are things that are affected like lost money, effort and time. Time is a very essential thing in our world. So I guess, I will suspend or fire, if it's within my scope of power, the persons who are involved with the mistake. Room for errors are for errors that are tolerable and when it is not, you have to consider it as a threat to the business." Nagpalakpakan ang mga  kaklase ko sa katabi ko na  nagsalita. Yeah right, mistake is a mistake unless it is tolerable. Pero paano nga ba masasabing tolerable ang isang pagkakamali?

Maybe when risk is manageable in a sense. Or baka kung hanggang kaya mo pang masaktan sa pagkakamaling 'yon.

"Yes, very well said. Mr. Keller."

Nagsalita pa ang professor namin pero nagbell na kaya hindi na niya naituloy at nagsilabasan na kami.

Parang nililipad ang isip ko sa mga narealize ko ngayon. Hindi kaya may pagkakamali ako kaya ako iniwan ni Yuan dati? Pero sana naman diba sinabi niya like how HRs do it to the employees of the company. Ipapatawag sa office tapos ipapaexplain ang nagawang violation and if there's need of expulsion of employees sasabihin sa employee. Pero iyong relasyon namin ni Yuan, bigla atang nabankrupt at nalugi kaya naglaho na lang bigla. I bitterly smiled at the thought.

"Ang lalim ng iniisip mo ah?" Nagulat ako at napatingin sa nagsalita. Speaking of the devil, sobrang lalim talaga ata ng pag-iisip ko kaya hindi ko sya napansing lumapit.

"Ah, wala. Upo ka." I really wonder how I can speak casually to him while my heart is pounding so fast and so loud. Talent ko na ata ito eh. I know how to control my electrified self whenever he's near to me like now. Nakaupo siya sa gilid ko at halos nagdadampi na ang aming mga siko sa lapit niya.

"May naalala ako sa klase natin kanina." Napatingin ako sa kanya. Nakatingin din pala siya sa  akin. Those deep brown eyes is staring at my face right now na parang ako lang ang nakikita niya. Parang noong una lang kaming nagkita sa States. We were this close too when he approached me sitting on a bench in the sidewalk. Akala ko nga noon magnanakaw o rapist kahit ang gwapo gwapo niya. His body is well-built and his posture is awesomely sexy. He has dark eyebrows, pointed nose at hindi makakawala sa tingin mo ang kanyang bloody red lips. I envied that lips so much. And I can still remember how those lips felt on mine. I miss him so much. He's so near but why does it feels like he's so far?

"Azura?" Nabalik ang pag-iisip ko sa katawang lupa ko nang bigkasin niya ang pseudo-name ko. I wanted so much to tell him that I am Blythe pero paano nga kung nagkamali ako noon at hindi ko man lang namalayan na sobrang apektado pala siya. He's not the showy type. Sobrang tahimik lang nya pag nagkakamali ako at kapag humuhupa na ang galit niya, doon pa niya ako kakausapin. Hindi ko alam kung ano bang nagawa ko para lumayo siya ng ganoon kalayo.