the dumping ground // one shots

twist // one shot

warnings - stockholm syndrome recovery

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wanted to try something different so this one shot is told entirely from ryan's diary entries

'...' signal a continuation of the same entry, just at a different point in the day.

also, i'm writing a part two to 'five' but i finished this first so lol

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february tenth.

i woke up from a coma last week. the doctors say it's been just over a month since they saved me. i don't like it here. i miss jenny. how could they have saved me if jenny was the one protecting me?

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february eleventh.

i don't trust anyone here, they're going to be mad when they find out what ryan did. that's what jenny said. she was protecting me from them.

when is she coming to get me?

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february twelfth.

the doctors keep calling me ryan but my name is noah. jenny said so. ryan did an incredibly horrible, disgusting thing so now i'm noah.

jenny wouldn't lie to me.

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i'm not ryan. i'm not ryan. i'm not ryan. i'm not ryan. i'm not ryan. i'm not ryan. i'm not ryan. i'm not ryan. i'm not ryan. i'm not ryan.

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february thirteenth.

mike asked to see ryan. i had a panic attack. he knows what happened and now he wants to hurt ryan.

this is exactly what jenny predicted. i want to go back.

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dr. wu keeps looking at me strangely. she must know what ryan did.

i'm not ryan.

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february fourteenth.

dr. wu asked me if it was okay for her to introduce me to someone. i didn't want her to but i nodded anyway. jenny would get angry if i said no.

i want to be good for jenny.

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dr. wu's friend is a psychologist. his name is evan. he stopped calling me ryan when i tried to make him to understand that i am noah.

he doesn't call me ryan anymore, but he doesn't call me noah either.

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february seventeenth.

evan asked me what i wanted. i said protection. he told me i was safe now but he doesn't understand.