Lance Shots

Silent Cries

Hiya! An actual chapter! This was a lovely request! I hope I met your expectations!
Warning: mentions of alcohol abuse, swearing, I think thats it.
BTW, this is pretty long. Just a warning.

Lance pov

I sit in the dark observatory after another beat down from Shiro. His words hurt me more than anyone realizes. And it's not just him. Pidge. Allura. And sometimes Hunk slides a few words in there. Keith can't insult me cause he's not even here. (Coran is too pure to hurt anyone)
Everyone is so worked up and sad about Keith leaving for the blades. I wonder if they would feel that way if I were to leave in some manner. Would they even care? Probably not. They'd probably dance around and cheer like in the Wizard of Oz when the Wicked Witch of the West was killed. They'd say things like 'finally that brat is gone" or "I'm so happy I never have to see his ugly face again!" They barely notice me as it is. I rarely show up for meals, I barley interact with them anymore. I train all night and no one notices. I teach myself Altean. I dont flirt.i stay quiet. I do what they want. And no matter what, All they do is yell. Even when I do something that helps.
I sigh and ponder over the words said to me by the team and by some wonderful people back on Earth.
Loser
Pathetic
Stupid
Idiot
Weak
Childish
Selfish
Waste of space
Useless
And some of my own thoughts
Seventh wheel

I think back of my time on Earth. Where I sat with my Mama and watched the stars.
***Flashback****
Me and my mama lay under the stars while everyone else is alseep. "One day Mama, I'm gonna be up there. I'll sit on a star and wave at you everyday." Seven year old me says. Mama chuckles and turns to me, her tan skin illuminated by the pale moonlight. "Of course you will Mijo. And guess what, I'll be here waving back." She says with her silky smooth voice. She starts to sing, a beautiful song, her voice making your heart melt.
A star sits upon the horizon
Your ancestors watching from above
They know your name.
They watch over your heart that's inside you
Letting you know what defines you
They know who you are
No matter how hard you try
To hide your heart
They know who you are
Who you truly are
( I made this up, you can think of your own meaning for it)
She ends the song,whispering the last line of lyrics. " Singing will always help you Mijo. Silence is never a good thing. Fill it with your voice. Remember this Mijo. It will help you." she says as I drift off the sleep in her arms. "Goodnight Mi amor" she whispers. "Goodnight mama" I manage to get out before drifting off.
End flashback

I sit next on the floor hugging my knees as I think of my mama. I miss her. Because of her, I used to sing for my whole family. I sang when I was upset. When I was losing hope. When I felt alone. When I felt helpless. All the things that being up here with team Voltron makes me feel.
Before I could stop myself, I'm Taking my Mama's advise once more.
I can hold my breath
I can bite my tongue
I can stay awake for days if that's what you want
Be your number one
I can fake a smile
I can force a laugh
I can dance and okay the part
If that's what you ask
Give you all I am
I can do it
I can do it
I can do it
But I'm only human
And I bleed when I fall down
I'm only human
And I crash and I break down
Your words in my head, knives in my heart
You build me up and then I fall apart
Cause I'm only human