Lance Shots

Ego

Hi:)

If Keith had a lot of one thing, it was ego. A massive fucking ego.

It drowned out the rest of his personality, and he didn't see anything wrong with it. He had to be the top of everyone, degrade everyone. Like it was his fucking life's purpose, to be a collasal bag of dicks. A fucking asshole.

He loves to pick on people, but I was his favorite victim. It's like he loves to watch me drown in his words, as they suffocate my mind. Drive me off the edge. His ego grows, and grows, and grows every time a flash of hurt passes through my eyes. He smirks, laughs, and every time one of those canines show through the feral grin, I swear it looks like my blood dripping off of them. Like he just feasted off the best meal, he was the predator and I the oh, so vulnerable prey.

And with every bite, every taunt, he thrives while I shrivel up.  And to think I was the confident, flirty, extroverted, happy, loud Lance McClain. Heh. Ouch.

"Oi, shut the fuck up McClain"

"You can't do better than that?! That's your best?! Ha!"

"TRY HARDER"

"Can you shut your mouth for one second"

"Looks like you've gained some weight there Lancey"

"Stop whining, you wuss"

" 'oh I'm Lance McClain, and I miss my mommy, and my daddy and' Shut the fuck up!"

"BE QUIET"

" The fuck you wearing that feminine shit for you? You a f** or something?! Disgusting!" (I'll break your kneecaps if you use that word at all.👀)

"You're not even doing the stance right idiot!"

"How the fuck did you mess that up?! What are you, mentally impaired or some shit? You got some brain problems?!"

"WHY CANT YOU DO ANYTHING RIGHT?!"

"Hah! How many people have flirted with, male or female, and still can't score anyone? I could walk up to one, say hi, and they'd swoon. Maybe it's that ugly mug of yours, scaring them away. Heheh"

"WORTHLESS BASTARD!"

"Why are you even here?"

"How the fuck, out of everyone, did Blue choose you? Your ass must have just been in the right time and place. "

"YOU DON'T BELONG!"

"STUPID"

"FUCK UP"

"LOSER"

"DEAD WEIGHT!"

I just want to scream. Yell. Fight. Break him into pieces, but I'm too late. My 'ego' is shattered, if you can even call it that. Or is it just my will, my purpose. Keith had to be at the top of the food chain, and it destroyed me. Sure, it's just like being in Middle school again. Just being bullied. But this hits so much harder, cuts much deeper. His form of ego boosting made the claws of my self-conscious ,that's always been cracked, tear out my heart. My fears, insecurities, everything dark rooted itself so deep in me, becoming who I am and overshadowing who I was. The roots incase my mind, choking it.

And Keith, Keith looks so pleased with himself, fucking sadist. Sure, most of the wounds he makes aren't physical, but it causes so much pain. He can see it, and a light sparkles in his eyes every time. His ego gets a nice stroke when I crumble, when he crushes me with his foot, like I'm a bug, a piece of dust. How can he enjoy being such a monster?

His ego controls him. His hunger is insatiable, always starving to feed it. And soon, his favorite prey won't be able to keep it alive.

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I don't know what my mind is coming up with lately, and this just popped up. I don't even know if it makes sense, and I'm too lazy to really go over it so.... Hehe.

Ta~ta