In love // GD

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Today I decided to skip school because why not...
My mom was like kinda ok with it surprisingly. I decided to take everyone to the recording studio with me where I was gonna try out a few songs. My agent told me that there was another location in the city so now we are spending a day in the city. I'm vlogging for next weeks video.
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We got to the city and it was beautiful as always. I love the city but I could never live in the middle of it. It's too chaotic. We arrived at the recording studio and it was so nice. The people greeted me and told me that I would be in room B. I had the entire room to myself (and everyone else who came with me of course) since this wasn't an official recording time.
"Ok I already created a beat for this song so I'm gonna go in and record it. James I trust you the most with this shit, if I sound pitchy or just off key hit this button and tell me ok?" He nodded and I walked into the booth. Today I was recording a song I wrote called I can't fall in love without you  (I can't fall in love without you Zara Larsson)
I did some vocal warm ups on the way here so I was all good. Ethan was getting some behind the scenes shots for me. Grayson flipped through my song book and Emma sat on the couch getting some Snapchat's for her story.
"Ok ready James?"
"Ready sister!" He said holding two thumbs up. This song was more sad so I zoned into the mood.
"I feel so happy, Happy that I'm free.
And I can see things, Things I couldn't see" I started. I wrote this song not mainly about anyone. It's a mix of me being scared to loose the person I love and having had lost someone I thought I loved. Complicated but so are a teen girls emotions.
"But I can't fall in love without you. I can't fall in love without you. I can't fall in love without you. I can't fall in love without you. Please don't fall in love without me" unintentionally I started getting emotional. The last line I sang was shaky and everyone noticed. James paused the music really bringing everyone's attention to me breaking down. I tried to laugh it off but tears kept streaming down my face. I don't even know why I'm crying the fuck. Bad song to record today I guess. James came into the booth and hugged me.
"What's wrong?" He asked sympathetically .
"I don't know, I swear I'm fine I literally don't know why I'm crying. I mean yeah the song is sad but not that sad." I said with a slight laugh.
"You broke down at the please don't fall in love without me part. Cmon there has to be a reason." James said holding my shoulders. I looked down, is there a reason? I guess I am scared that one day Grayson will fall out of love with me and the same thing will happen that did with my ex. I looked at Grayson who was waiting to come inside but didn't want to interrupt.
"Ok maybe I am just a little scared I'll loose Grayson. I can't help but to feel that he will turn out just like my ex. I love him and I don't want to loose him." I kept getting chocked up trying to get that out. Yeah no I'm terrified to loose him.
"No mia stop thinking like that. He loves you so much trust me. When you left he wouldn't stop talking about you and always giving us updates or asking if we talked to you every five minutes. Mia he is head over heels for you." I smiled at James comment. Ok maybe I was overthinking a little bit.
"Thank you James. I love you" I said hugging him one more time.
"And I love you sister." He said kissing me cheek. James walked out and I could tell they all asked him what's wrong. He looked at me and smiled. I couldn't read his lips but he didn't say enough to actually tell them what happened. I guess he just said I was fine.
"Ok sorry for the short break. I'm fine. Let's continue." I said into the mic so that they could hear. Emma, Ethan, and Grayson all looked at me confused. I winked to James and he continued the beat. I ended up recording the entire song and was happy with it. I tested out some other songs that were kinda flops but it's all good. We were taking a lunch break and all just chilling.
"Mia you have enough songs In here for like three albums." Grayson said still flipping through my song book.
"Well yeah these are songs I've written over the last year. Sis went through some shit so now there is just a wave of depressing ass songs." I said and he laughed cause he knew it was true.
"I don't know. Maybe I'll release an album next." I said popping a French fry into my mouth.

Sorry kinda a filler chapter. Thank you for all the love on this story so far!