I looked over at Billie and she looked at me and Q "Q I'm tired I'm not leaving" she said "then ask her to leave so we can sleep" he said I looked at her in confusion and she pulled me out of the room as he walked inside and took off his shirt. She closed the door behind her and I looked at her "I'm sorry" she said "are you fucking serious!" I yelled out I could see paparazzi from the corner of my eye taking pictures but I didn't care. "I love you" she said "no you don't" I said I pushed her away from me and walked onto the elevator leaving her standing there. On my way back to the Airbnb many fans wanted to take pictures with me and I would smile and take the picture but you could see that I've been crying.
I finally got back to the house and no one was there yet except for Natalie. I avoided eye contact and I walked to the fridge grabbing the bottle of vodka and taking a swing of it before walking to the backyard and sitting down on the side of the pool with my feet dipped in. She walked outside and sat next to me "she doesn't deserve you I promise" she said "how'd you know?" I asked "it's all over Twitter" she said I groaned and took another swing of vodka . she's missing out" Natalie said "you're missing out too" I said lowly "but you know why we couldn't be together and you can't just hop from Billie to me" she said. I looked into her eyes and then down at her lips "don't do that, that's what got us in bed together last time" she said "I just want to be taken care of" I said I leaned my head on her shoulder and she played with my fingers "we know that this won't last" she said mentioning our previous love fling "I'm okay with that as long as I don't lose you" I said "were better off alone" she said "Natalie I want to be wanted" I said she groaned and pushed me into the pool. I swam up and she looked at me in frustration "what the hell" I said to her "I wanted you! And then you fell for eilish and you fucked Tana and it hurt me!" She yelled "Natalie Im sorry, you left and it hurt me" I said "I love you" I said to her she jumped into the pool and wrapped her arms around my neck "you don't actually love me" she said "you're in love with the idea that I'm always gonna be here" she said. "I love you" I said to her again. I've always loved Natalie and I never got a chance with her. "You like billie" she said "I'll be here to pick you up when she breaks your heart" she said as she got out of the pool "she already did" I whispered.
