Summer Lovin' ✩ Hardzello

0.6 | Heartbreak Hotel

Joseph stop right now.

You don't love him.

You could never love him.

He could never love you.

Give it up.

It's illegal anyway.

I couldn't take it anymore.

I stomped my foot down on the ground and stood up.

"Everything alright Joey?" Ben asked me.

I tried to calm myself down before I stormed over to him.

"Joey, you look pale you should sit down"

I stood in front of him and took a deep breath.

Don't do it.

There were beads of sweat that were starting to form on my forehead and my sweater was suffocating me but there was no going back now.

Don't do it

I put both my hands on either side of his face and he looked confused for the spit second I looked at him.

My lips crashed down onto his and I was shaking violently.

He kissed back but not for very long.

I took my hands off of his face and pulled away. He looked at me, wide eyed.

It soon set in what I had just done.

"Ben, Ben oh my god I'm so sorry I don't know why I did that, oh god"

Ben just started at me.

I couldn't read his expression.

"Go" he said calmly.

"W-what?"

"Just...go, Joe"

I started tearing up.

"I need to think, just leave Joe"

I nodded and walked out of his room almost as quickly as I walked in.

I stomped upstairs to my room and put on an Elvis record.

I wasn't supposed to have Elvis records but I bought this one in secret when I finally got enough money for it.

I turned the volume up as loud as it could go and I buried my head in a pillow.

I shouldn't have done that, he's never going to forgive me.

He's gonna hate me forever.

I just ruined our friendship by literally kissing him.

Him.

Another man.

And I kissed him.

Jesus Christ.