The Teenager Mind

chapter 4

I then came across a YouTuber call Markiplier, there's also two others, pewdiepie and jacksepticeye. they entertain me and put a smile on my Face. I then decided to make my own YouTube channel named after my first ever OC. Echanted Rose.

over the years I gained 16 million subscribers and was up there with markiplier, PewDiePie And Jacksepticeye and we were the best of friends! and- yeah that's a lie.....

you have to remember I was keeping YouTube a Secret from my family. Wait. I never told you?

Every single app I wanted, I would go downstairs and ask my mom for permission to download it. You know, to see if it was appropriate for my eyes.

When I came across YouTube my mom said no, I decided to be rebellious and download it anyways. I heard that YouTubers get paid, and if I made a YouTube channel and gain at least more than a hundred subscribers...

then I would get money sent to my house! and then my parents would find out! and I'm only a five year old child! I couldn't let that happen.

.....Now the I think, I can't believe I thought I would become really popular! I clcouldn't even give out full sentences! Let alone how to work a camera.......or even get one.

basically all the way up until I was 13, I decide to make a fake YouTube channel. I think pretty much just to entertain myself. You're probably wondering why I stopped at 13, which is right now, because I actually started a real Channel! where now I got 30 subscribers! It's not much but I'll take it. So that was the end of my life and I hope you enjoyed--

( reader: what about....school?)

I was really hoping you wouldn't have noticed, but then again if I want to make this book and actual long and readable. And teenager Life, considering everything I just talked about in my life most likely can't be related, I have to talk more. now go whatever house you live and grab a hat and hold it on tight because this is going to be a very crazy roller coaster. I mean there's a teenagers involved,  so, you have to know  there's going to be a lot of stupid drama.

Really nothing drama teenager cliche happen until I hit Middle School, where I'm 13 and in 8th grade and the year is not really over yet (I still have two more months).but I'm in 8th grade and that's the end of middle school so i'm technically all done and get to talk about my pain and suffering.

Till I get to high school

The middle school that I went to is Gates Chili Middle School and it's not pronounce chili......wait, I can't really speak to you when you're reading this, so according to Wikipedia a small hot-tasting pod of a variety of capsicum, used chopped (and often dried) in sauces, relishes, and spice powders. There are various forms with pods of differing size, color, and strength of flavor, such as cascabels and jalapeños.

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Basically it's not that food.

My school is just like any typical old school you see. it's full of chaos, you never get your homework in time, and your grades are struggling to survive.

I've gotten into countless Arguments where teachers had to be pulled in just because I'm scared to fight of those arguments and end up making it a worser outcome.

I wanted to be the calm and gentle side of the argument because in sixth grade I got into a pretty nasty argument where teachers found out that's the nasty argument involved me swearing and doing a lot of things my mom wouldn't be so happy with. so I made sure if I was in another argument, I would be the calm side, so if anyone ever recorded it or told another teacher, I wouldn't get punished for the way I was behaving.

(there's a tip!)

luckily when me and the girl that got into that nasty argument, we solve it, and we settled our differences where then the teacher found it was not necessary to tell her parents. (Score!) Most of my arguments actually involved my closer friends and then having depression and anxiety.

their stories of them being sad all the time just made me sad where I'm trying my hardest to be happy. I wanted to help them in every single way I could but I just didn't know how to when my own issues and depression and anxiety was caving on in me. I didn't know how to help them. I mean after all I wasn't there therapist.

Then of course that'll started in 8th grade, very recently. I mean would you really expect me to do this when I was in 6th grade? Heck no! I'm a sixth grader for Pete's sake! I don't know what or how Middle School works or how to stick up for myself or anything! I just try my best to respect my peers and survived the year. Now here comes to the lovey-dovey mushy stuff of Middle School. Because that happens -_-

In total, I had 4 guys ask me out, and all 4 guys have been declined because me and not knowing what love is.

And me being afraid of it....