The Teenager Mind

chapter 10

I'm terribly sorry it's been at least a month (as in 30 days or more)  since last time I've updated this.

Wait, is this becoming a diary at this point? considering I'm marking all the important stuff that has happened in my life NOW. Like things that are happening now, not just talking my life in general trying to help people or anything.

Things have just been very crazy lately and I promise you I'm not just making up some lame excuse for not updating things.

I mean I technically have been updating this considering whatever craziness happened to me, I Imediately open up my memos and write down my thoughts and everything that has happened in that moment. so then instead of trying to recite all my emotions, I can just copy and paste it here, edit it, and then show you my emotion that's true emotion! and to help you see my opinions and mind to help people to understand teens a little more..

like I said being in teen years  sucks and things just go left and right in everything becomes trash because you don't know what's going. on you're not a grown-up and yet you're not a kid.

But then when adults, you have to act you like one, smart, responsible, respectful, good looking or your considered a bum, I get it, wait, that's a lie, teens thinks being a adult is cool, they have everything. While true, that's false

It like that meme, yes but actually no

people expecting different things for teens with every single second of your life, more than trying new things to try becoming adult or just try to get out there. but then it turns for the worse, to the point where people start judging you, it making you hate yourself.

you're put on the spot.

oh and guess what? I actually started talking with brooke and Ashley, surprisingly. Well just brooke, the funny part is that I'm actually conversating them on here cuz it's really the only way I can.

I've talk to her to see if there is any times that their free this summer, so I can actually hang out with them for a chance. I've been dying see what things have happen or change.

I had a small conversation with Brooke and I can see things have changed a lot for her. I mean I didn't really realize that  she's now in 6th grade, she's in Middle School.

the Middle School

I don't care if you're 5 years old. if you are in the middle school, you're going to suffer and you're going to act like a stupid teenager where a bunch of dramatic things happen.

she even told me herself she's having rumors that some guy sleeping with her. my first response to that was "what?!" I started joking around that "do you even knows what that means?" considering her parents, last time I saw them, are very strict on how to have fun over there. they just want their kids to be pure as possible. And I think they'll kill people for it.

I remember this one time her parents actually yelled at me for trying to convince them that Santa Claus, the Easter Bunny and the Tooth Fairy wasn't real. Sure thats not so bad, but these were adults weren't my parents, and I was 5 at the time where I was already being made fun of by creepypastas.

It made me terrified of her parents and now every single parent to this day!

I had a conversation with my mom about me making these books, and she told me that I should start uploading pictures of my drawings,  so I can get my point across.

Ever since that day I realized that I like are I've been drawing ever since, that's 9 years of drawing!

I say no to the even though I was thinking of doing it and kind of want to do it because I wanted  the reader to imagine what the character looks like for themselves.  considering they probably had a total different point of view on what the actual character look like, and I feel that disappointing feeling of reality.

so what I'm doing to make my mom happy, and a little bit of myself because I want to do this but then don't want to listen to my mom. is to post actual real pictures of what they look like!

since I'm so terrible explaining thing....

then again that won't be anytime soon considering I'd have to schedule dates to meet with them and we have to wait 2 weeks until school is over.
 
(Major time skip due to me not updating this constantly...)

School is now over for me! Yeah I really need to be On Track on updating this...