That Pretty Boy (COMPLETED)

Chapter 40

" I know you must be hurting until the very last, I hurt you. And I want to say sorry for everything, everything I did. I was just afraid of letting you go that's why I did that kahit alam kong mali, maling-mali. Pinili ko parin gawin dahil sa sobrang takot at pagmamahal ko sayo. "

"I love you so much Mahal, so much to the point that I can't live without you. My life was you. And if loving you was choosing  you, I will gladly to end my life just to see you again. That's how much I love you Bria ..."

"And the news that you choose to end your life was the end of me .. I am losing myself. Everything. I can't even think anymore except you. Our memories. Our love and promises to each other. And I hope you can forgive me by choosing this ... your my life right? You know that because I always tell you. I love you Bria Allison Fern. Just wait for me baby. "

Napapikit nalang ako nang makita ang huling ginawa niya.

I can't believe it!

Hindi ko na napigilan ang tuloy-tuloy na pag-agos ng luha sa mga mata ko at tuluyan nang umiyak.

Hindi ko na maintindihan ang nararamdaman ko! Ang sakit-sakit! Ramdam na ramdam ko yong sakit! Sakit para sa kapatid ko at kahit gusto kong magalit sa kapatid ni Dos ay hindi ko magawa dahil nasasaktan ako para sa kanila.

Paanong umabot sa ganon? Anong nangyare? They don't deserve that!

Gusto kong magsusumigaw dito sa loob nang kwarto ko pero hindi ko magawa dahil pakiramdam ko pati ang pag-sigaw ay hindi ko na magawa dahil sa bigat nang nararamdaman ko.

How can that happy relationship will end like this?

The flashdrive. Everything inside was all the memories of my sister with the brother of Dos that he's talking about. Everything was just happiness and love that I can see in their faces.

At hindi ko alam kung bakit umabot sa ganon?

I'm close with my sister, very close. She's my role model, my inspiration, my best friend. She was everything to me.

And when I found her in that room that day I lost it.

I'm aware that she have this special someone in her life before because sometimes she will open up with me but the thing is she never tried to introduce her boyfriend to me. I don't know anything about her boyfriend, just the stories that she'll open up with me. That's it.

And that's the reason why my parents and my sister always have an argument because of her relationship.

I know she knows that I support her relationship even if I didn't say anything to her. I always there for her when my parent always have the say to her. I always protect her from our parents.

Pakiramdam ko napakawalang-kwenta kong kapatid dahil sa oras na kailangan niya nang masasandalan nang mga oras na yon doon pa ako nawala.

I hurts that I didn't do anything to stop her for doing that. I'm too late.

At ngayon nakita ko ang lahat nang memories nila nang boyfriend niya. I feel  jealous because it like she's more than happy to be with this man. I didn't see the contented, happiness and love in her eyes before when she's with me.

And now, I realized how happy my sister before with her relationship.

The last thing to do now is to talk to my parents. I want to know everything now.

Hindi na ako makapaghintay.

Mabilis akong tumayo at nag-ayos nang sarili ko. I know I'm a mess right now but I don't care anymore.