Shadows Into Light

g o o d n i g h t

I used to fall asleep

with a smile on my face

after you drop me off

at my house with a lingering kiss.

I used to fall asleep

with a smile on my face

after we text late into the night

with shared secrets between our fingertips.

I used to fall asleep

with a smile on my face

after we FaceTimed

your voice soothing me to sleep.

Then there were a few times

when I used to fall asleep

with a smile on my face

after we said our goodnights

and we enter the dream land in each other's arms.

Now,

it's all different.

Now I fall asleep

with tears staining my face

with no goodnight

with only shadows

of old memories.

My last thoughts

before bed

are still of you

and my first thoughts

when I wake up

are still of you.

Do you still hold onto those memories?

Do you still think of me?

Do you still care about me?

Those unanswered questions

are echoes in my head

the last thoughts

I have before

crying myself

to sleep

every night.

Goodnight.