Shadows Into Light

a forever battle

i thought my heart had died

consumed by the wounds

the created craters

just like the moon.

i thought my brain had finally won

it had been asleep for so long

letting my heart run free

naive and unafraid.

my brain is mad

that it had to pick up all the pieces

as my heart bled,

staining the stars.

my brain took control

to protect the heart

from ever reaching

anyone else.

but there has been an upset

since you floated through.

the heart which was imprisoned

in my ribs

began to move.

my heart was swelling

seeing a brighter future

and a smile plastered on my face.

my brain wasn't paying attention

as my heart began chasing you

trying, doing, and feeling things

that it hadn't done in a while.

my heart had a great day,

but it came crashing down.

my brain reached back for the reins,

tugging and pulling my heart back in

reminding it of the disaster of last year.

we had a good talk

we know we can't do it,

but my heart wants to believe.

my heart wants to try

my brain wants to hide.

i know it's only because

you are busy

but my heart already

took a tumble.

sending my brain signals

that you don't like me anymore

and it is hurting.

my brain knows

nothing has changed.

but my heart feels like it has.

i see the red flags within me.

of all the terrible habits

i have started forming.

maybe it's just been a bad two days

that i'm lonely and bored.

while you are out there

having fun.

my brain is trying to protect

while my heart is trying to find

happiness.

it's a forever battle.

and i don't know which one

i want to win.