The Lies We Told On Thursday Nights

32. Wednesday: You Know Nothing (Levi) (a)

HI! I am so sorry for the incredibly late update, I had AP exams last week and then had to take care of some things this week. It is un-edited as of right now, just because I was told I have to go to a meeting in a few minutes. I have more to add to this chapter, a whole other scene. But I decided I'm going to post a short maybe 1,000 word chapter for Levi...it'll put things out of order, but it'll be real quick.

We are nearing the end of the book! Don't worry there are still, I would say 8 chapters +an epilogue, the last few will be short but told from others POVS. 

Warning for this chapter: Serious suicidal ideation and mentions of eating disorders and vulgar criticisms.

Also, I changed the football game back to a Friday night.

Levi

Wednesday- 4:25

I dropped my phone onto the tile floor, taking a pathetic chug of liquor. I leaned my limp body against the bathtub, rolling my head back.

I knew exactly what I just did. I just signed my death will 4 days before I die.

I had to finish everything now. Why? Because today everything made sense. I was in fucking love Emery Nates. And she was either in love with me or a fool. A fool to think this date was sincere. Scratch that, if she loved me, she would be the biggest fool of all the world. She will be the starved defenseless bunny rabbit in a field of selfish wolves.

If she does like me, romantic or not, that must mean she believes I am a good person. SOmeone with her moral compass wouldn't hang with a guy like me unless she believed I was worthy.

I had to prove to her I wasn't worthy. I had to make her hate me so much that she'll spit on my grave.

I had to make it so even if I unfortunately lives, there would be no way I could redeem any relations.

My thoughts changed.

I thought about the party I was hosting on Friday after the football game. Everyone needed to be there, the football team, the popular girls, the people I used to bully, and of course Emery. I was crafting words I wanted to say. How my last hours should go. We have a football game Friday night which I, much to my parents dismay, am planning on failing. Maybe I'd get the ball, but as the quarterback, I'll toss the ball to the wrong person. Luckily my parents are going to be out of town, my dad will be missing the game.

By the time the game starts they should be two hours away. I was doing the math in my head as to if I obviously throw the game would they get back in time and crush my party and plans.

Maybe, just maybe I wouldn't throw the game. Maybe I'd win it.

I haven't worked that part out yet.

All I knew is I had a date with Emery Nates at McDonalds, and unfornutly, her and I won't be the only ones there. A few memebers of the football team will be there and of course a camera.

I at first was planning on capturing a picture of her near liquor or with stains on her shirt, maybe call her fat and a failure.Or accuse her of cheating.

But that was too far. And I fear compromising photos would destroy her future. And goddamn, she is the only person who will have a future worth something in this world.

I was just going to cause some slight humiliation which after Im dead won't matter. I know kids and whatever happens on this date will disappear after I die.

I thought about Alex (the nice one), maybe I'd ask him if he could make sure the team won't harass Emery.

Maybe Id also tell him to make sure James doesn't touch her.